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MissConstrue
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26 Jan 2009, 5:42 am

I'm sick of having to gripe about it.

s**t happens and I'm sick of my dad controlling it.

I'm taking this joke of a life away

f**k it, I don't need to stand for this s**t anymore.


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26 Jan 2009, 5:45 am

Are you going to kill him or kill yourself?


Hopefully the former.



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26 Jan 2009, 6:07 am

No me.

I'm a mistake and I'm sick of having to deal with it all the time.

I don't even know why I'm posting this, I f*****g hate this s**t of a life and I'm sick of having to deal with these on going problems.

If I wasn't so goddamn sensative, then maybe it would be easier but as it turns out, I'm f****d up and there's no cure for people like me.

My nephew died right after my grandparents.

What's so f*****g happy about life now?

I'm crying...if that's a f*****g weakness then I don't belong anywhere. I can't take it anymore

I appreciate some of you guys who have been there for me. I just can't take it anymore. I don't know what to do.


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26 Jan 2009, 6:20 am

He was only 4 years old and full of life. Why wasn't it me?

Why?

Why is everyone leaving?

I can't take it anymore. I don't know what else to do except cry and wish my own life had been taken. I can't take it anymore.

Why is my dad an a**hole?

I hate him, I wish only he was dead or me.


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26 Jan 2009, 6:20 am

Its best to get your emotions out right now. Even the negative ones. Let them all out, in which ever way you can think of. If you want to scream, scream. If you want to rant, rant. Dont allow your negative emotions to bring you to do something you'll regret however.

Suicide really isn't an option. If only suicide could take away our life problems. But of course suicide means no life. It's not life you don't want, it's certain circumstances within it. Hang in there for today, and then tomorrow, and the next day. I'm very sensitive myself, and I know exactly what you're going through (seriously I'm not just saying that). Have hope, try it, even if it's difficult. Hope you feel better...



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26 Jan 2009, 6:30 am

Dear MissConstrue,

You are not a mistake.

You're absolutely right that s**t happens and can make you feel so bad that you don't know what to do.

You are not a mistake.

You bring happiness into other people's lives.

You are not a mistake.

You have the power to hold on.

You are not a mistake.

F**k the bad s**t.

You are a gift.

Z



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26 Jan 2009, 6:31 am

I could understand from a "logical" perspective but just wait. I'm now 26, my dad is only concerned about my drug and alcohol abuse.

What the f**k is he going to gripe about next? How I didn't fair out as well as my sisters or how I just can't handle loss?

f**k him!! !!

I'm sick of him telling me how I should or shouldn't feel after all he's done is drink half my childhood and lecture me about what I should or shouldn't do.

I don't know except move away which I can't cos I'm so f*****g stupid. I'm f*****g sick of it all.


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26 Jan 2009, 6:37 am

Zonder wrote:
Dear MissConstrue,

You are not a mistake.

You're absolutely right that s**t happens and can make you feel so bad that you don't know what to do.

You are not a mistake.

You bring happiness into other people's lives.

You are not a mistake.

You have the power to hold on.

You are not a mistake.

F**k the bad s**t.

You are a gift.

Z


I wish that were true but all I've done is drink and use and then try to stay away from it.

Now I don't know what to do. I've tried to get into voluteer work...but it only felt like a job. Nothing else.

I know s**t happens but I just can't deal with it anymore. It's been going on for toooooo long and I've tried real hard to get help for it but I feel it's noting but caused more s**t and stupidity. I'm sick of it all.


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26 Jan 2009, 6:39 am

MissConstrue wrote:
No me.

I'm a mistake and I'm sick of having to deal with it all the time.

I don't even know why I'm posting this, I f***ing hate this sh** of a life and I'm sick of having to deal with these on going problems.

If I wasn't so goddamn sensative, then maybe it would be easier but as it turns out, I'm f**** up and there's no cure for people like me.

My nephew died right after my grandparents.

What's so f***ing happy about life now?

I'm crying...if that's a f***ing weakness then I don't belong anywhere. I can't take it anymore

I appreciate some of you guys who have been there for me. I just can't take it anymore. I don't know what to do.


Your nephew died :cry:



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26 Jan 2009, 6:57 am

MissConstrue wrote:
I wish that were true but all I've done is drink and use and then try to stay away from it.

Now I don't know what to do. I've tried to get into voluteer work...but it only felt like a job. Nothing else.

I know sh** happens but I just can't deal with it anymore. It's been going on for toooooo long and I've tried real hard to get help for it but I feel it's noting but caused more sh** and stupidity. I'm sick of it all.


I was drinking too much, because I was in a bad place - too many expectations of me that I couldn't fulfill and too much beating myself down.

I recently got out of the bad situation and things have improved in ways I didn't expect - my attitude, my happiness, my energy level.

It sounds like it might help to spend some time away from your father. Do you know someone you could visit for a couple of weeks? Sometimes just getting away can help bring a different perspective.

Z



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26 Jan 2009, 7:28 am

Avril Lavigne - I'm With You Msconstrue

http://au.youtube.com/watch?v=bW2LTnzD-vE



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26 Jan 2009, 5:34 pm

your poor thing :(
if you ever wanna talk I'll always be here :)



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26 Jan 2009, 5:54 pm

If you are thinking about suicide, its best to go to the hospital for your own safety. Please don't kill yourself.



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26 Jan 2009, 5:54 pm

MC, please check your inbox.



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26 Jan 2009, 6:53 pm

MC, about 3 800 000 000 years ago your first ancestor came to life. Your entire prefamily lived, fought, got hurt, killed, sacrefised themselves for their young, survived a global iceage, diseases, metiors, vulcanos, earthquakes, storms, tornados, preditors etc, an unbroken chain, struggeling every day and night for ~1 388 900 000 000 days and nights, to this very moment, so you might live now. You are a member of the dominant specie in this world, and I promiss you that 99,9999999 of you forefathers would be extremly proud of that. You are an exclusive individual amongs one of the 0,001% of all spicies that has survieved to this day. And the rest of us want you around. :)

Life hurts becouse you care, that's a good thing, without it you would be truely empty.

"When you die, the world will make an unreplaceble loss."
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26 Jan 2009, 6:57 pm

Please don't kill yourself, MissConstrue, all of us on WP would miss you!

Things can and will get better for you, if you let them. I promise.


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