ADoyle wrote:
I have dealt with PTSD myself, and the main thing that helped me was to see a therapist who specialized in abuse recovery, and a support group of other survivors which was led by another therapist. It's a sign of strength to get therapy, as you're saying that the abuser isn't going to win.
The abuser that I was talking about, the teacher, he did win, he got away with a slap on the wrist and only lives across town, and it wasn't just me, there were others that got it extremely worse. He would get 12 year olds boys drunk, weight for them to pass out, then violently rape them. That brings up another one of my problems with anger. I am not a violent person, but if I was to run into this guy at the store, I just think I would lose it and I don't think I would be able to hold back from beating him to a bloody mess, even that I know it would be wrong, I think I would lose control of my brain
I am not feeling bad now, but I konw the feeling will come back as soon as something else trigers. Anyway thanks everyone for your help, I am going to look for online help. Maybe I will find a therapist that will e-mail.