=the bane of my existence. everything good i've had in life i've f**** it up. i do this both in the grand and the small scheme of things. for instance if my day is going too well i automatically do something stupid so i can feel miserable again by bedtime. or if a conversation is going too well i'll bring up some taboo subject or insult them in a way that sounds jokey in my head but ends up being brutally harsh.
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condescend to function
