Blind man, find the blue door.

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I need a diagnosis, but it is proving extremely difficult.

I went to see my GP and he said that he would be happy to refer me, but there are no resources for people with autism or Asperger's in the area. This means that I'd have to try and work it out off my own bat, which I just can't do. I know that I need it, but I am incapable of reaching it.

I just don't know how to organise things in my head. Well, some things I can organise and others I cannot. It seems to be the practical things I can't do. I've failed to cultivate any understanding about my condition because I just don't have the know-how. I need the support of the NAS, but I don't know how to make it happen by myself.

I don't think I'm explaining this very well. I just can't get my head around it all. It's like presenting a blind man with a series of doors and telling him that he can be cured of his blindness if he passes through the blue door. The help is within reach, but he can't make it on his own. That is how I feel.

I don't think I have much time left in this world. Learning about my Asperger's in 2007 helped to frame a great many things, but it has also made me realise that I'll never be a part of the world. I don't even want to. I give it about a year. I don't think I'll stand much more. Sometimes I wonder why I should even hang around another year.

Evidently you have to make your life's work in a very short time. What is it you plan to do?

You've already taken the most difficult step - reaching out for help. Where are you located? Perhaps someone from WP lives nearby and can help in some way. Many of us have felt as you do, and some still do now, at least from time to time.

I'm just outside Wolverhampton in the West Midlands. Are there any people from WP in the UK? I have no idea.

I just can't connect the dots by myself. I am also concerned that even if I get help, I might be misdiagnosed.