I cant take it anymore.

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I'm so sick of everything... my whole life has been nothing but dissapointments after dissapointments, failures after failures, fuckups after fuckups, i ruin everything, im sick of it, sick of my life, sick of living with aspergers syndrome... which i'd say has been the BIGGEST downfall in my entire life, why did this have to happen to me.... why me....... i try so hard to be kind to people, but i f**k everything up every time, and its been like this my entire life. i dont know what to do anymore, ive lost all hope... i dont want to live anymore... i cant see myself going anywhere in the future, aspergers syndrome has truely destroyed my life, my future, and any potential ive ever had to become successful, i cant do it anymore.. i want to die. i feel no one cares about me, no one loves me, no one even thinks about me. recently ive ruined a great friendship with a girl i know, i was just so upset, so frustrated..i said some horrible things, and i regret it so much now...ive been feeling like s**t for the past month, i dont know what to f*****g do anymore, im sick of it, sick of feeling like this, as i look around i notice everyone has friends, everyone has people that care for them, and no matter how kind i am to people, it gets me nowhere at all, no one cares about me. i need help, if i had a gun, i would not be here right now. someone help me please...

If it is such a great friendship, then I'm sure it can be salvaged.

I'm sorry you're feeling so frustrated and unhappy at the moment. It sounds like you've had a lot to deal with lately.

Are you sure that no one cares about you? Sometimes when you're feeling really down, it may seem that way, but you probably have family and friends who DO care.

As for the friendship that you fear you've lost, michillimackinac is right- a good friendship shouldn't be ended by some harsh words. Perhaps you need to write a letter to your friend apologising for what you said and telling her how much you value her friendship. I'm sure she's feeling hurt at the moment, but some sincere words of regret from you may repair the friendship more easily than you think.

If you've been feeling really bad for the past month, you might need to talk to your doctor about it- perhaps you're unwell or suffering from anxiety or depression and need to get yourself some treatment.

Please don't give up on yourself just yet, sweetheart. Everyone goes through some bad times, but with a bit of effort you'll be able to make your life better, ok? Jenny

I've been there. I'm sure you can still be friends and the AS will get better. It'll be okay.

In light of recent events, that is a really encouraging, awesome thing to hear you say. Well done my man, keep up the good work.

i lost all my friends in nearly 5 days over a few different events, i have no one to talk to anymore, no one to talk to about they way i feel or what im going through, i feel like this all day everyday, im already on anti depressants (max dose possible). im tired of it, i cant deal with it anymore, everything is so hopeless... a few weeks ago i had a gun, i was loading it about to do the inevitable, then a friend i had called because she heard about it, and convinced me not to do it, ive since lost her, and the gun. now i wish she hadnt called me...

Have you tried telling her in about those exact words how you screwed up?....with the intention of asking her forgiveness?.. [as opposed to hoping she will take you back]...

wow... i just sent her my final goodbye litterally like 5 mins ago... im so sad, i dont think i ever specificly asked her to forgive me god dammit i should have, but i did tell her everyday how sorry i was and how bad i feel. but to no avail...

You lost a friendship, it's only one. It's not a reason to give up. If you focus on being down about it it'll do more damage than help.

Ouch. I feel your pain. I unknowingly ruined a friendship between me and my friend Christine just because I got her the wrong gift four months ago. But I'm sorry for all that's been happening to you. I hope it gets better.

bingo! think negative and you will become negative, think positive (f*****g hard I know) and you will become