Severe depression- please help!

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I am severely depressed....again. Don't worry, I'm not suicidal. A lot has been happening. I wish so much that I have a "brain" but I don't. I have been brainless since I was born and my IQ tests have proven this. I am totally braindead. I have no future. My brother is amazing, will make millions of dollars within 5 years, when I am having "negative worth." That means worse than worthless. I cause nothing but problems for my family and the world. Let's start with my family. As I have said over the years, I am a burden. I see the stress that I cause to my family. I mean I take up my mom's entire life up, because I can't drive for numerous reasons, so she has to take me to my many appointments. I have made them spend money on a totally unsuccessful "business" by doing shows that suck away our money. The word "success" doesn't compute. Back in October, you all might remember how manic I was, full of grandiose delusions..thinking I was the Famous Artist, and worth millions of dollars, thinking I was literally going to change the world with my ideas and art. Yeah right, I can't believe that I ever thought of that!! How can I? I am currently looking for a psychiatrist that specializes in autism. I haven't been to my pdoc (my previous one obviously) in a few months. He was good, but he didn't understand autism. The aliens say they are going to invade soon, destroy the planet, and select a whole bunch of Chosen Ones to fight in an intergalactic war, and yes, they have chosen me as you all probably know. A few weeks ago I saw the alien ships. It was so scary that I had to run back into the house. Not a hallucination or delusion. The gov also wants me along with other people to fight in a war THEY created, and are in the process of making me a robot, for about 6 months I have been smelling body parts rotting (at first I thought it was the brain, but how can that be if I don't have one in the first place?), you will say, "You are having olfactory hallucinations with somatic delusions" but its not the case, as it is real and I have proof. I can read minds now!! I know I am not psychotic in any way, shape or form. Its called depression. A sad way of being. I also have guilt, had it for many years. The world is going to end because of me. A plane crashed recently in Indonesia because of ME. I predicted it in the beginning of the month, and it happened. About 100 died in the crash, and they would still be here if it wasn't for me. Of course it wasn't intentional. Just a vision of a crash, followed by the gov accusing me of sabotage. I was (and still am) in America. I have been having weird experiences recently, I think its depersonalization and derealization. Everything around me appears fake, I feel dead, my body feels like its under the influence of someone else, reading stuff looks like in a different language (but yet still can read and of course type), floaty feeling (sometimes so severe that I am going to the ceiling), time distortion and dizziness. Also because of the depression, I haven't been eating very much at all for the past month or so. So, what do I do besides the obvious (going to a pdoc)?

But you ARE a real artist. We've seen your work.
I doubt that any artist has ever been worth millions, but it's still worth pursuing.
The world does benefit significantly, just not on a massive scale.

I would bet that, if you keep producing art through your current depression,
you'll have stuff that's good, even if you hate it at the moment.

(As for the aliens, I think they will be disappointed.
Most likely, we will destroy ourselves before they get here.
And it was such a pretty planet.)

Sadly according to my research, 99% of artists STARVE to death. That is literally the only skill or talent I have. Completely useless as a "person." I personally know an artist that was in the 1%, his name is Wyland. He has come to Seattle (around 60 miles from where I live) and I visited him when he went to his gallery. His company, according to his site makes about $100 MILLION a year! Its because he has many other products and his art goes for hundreds of thousands of dollars a piece. He's a marine life artist.

Hey, maybe you could work for him! It's worth a shot!

You're confusing money with value. There's no relationship at all,
especially in the modern world.
Ask any stay-home mom.
Or google "GNP," dead trees & sick babies.
The fact that society won't pay for it doesn't mean that we don't benefit.