Taupey wrote:
b9 wrote:
Zen wrote:
b9 is my hero.
i remember how i was conned in the school yards of the various public schools i was ascribed to (which i always failed (deliberately) to please, and always i was returned to the adolescent unit).
they pretended that they were listening to me, and i trusted them, and when i discovered they were not, they became my toys, and i pitted them against each other, and that was bad, and i was always re-institutionalized after being expelled.
TaupeyAna wrote:
I'm sorry to hear this has happened to you because I genuinely like you (whether you want to believe it or not, is your business) and I don't like hear about things like this that have happened to people I like.
i liked being in "rivendell adolescent unit" much more than i liked not being in it.
i hated regular schools, and i treated everyone badly when i was in regular schools.
i always lasted a short amount of time in regular schools because i did not want to be a part of them i suppose.
TaupeyAna wrote:
I know what it's like to be treated so horribly, because I have experienced cruel games other children have played, myself. I don't blame you and I don't believe you're bad for pitting them against each other. I'm sure the little bastards deserved it. Although, I have never been institutionalized and can only try to imagine what that must of been like to endure. I think I would rather not.
i do not really care what other people think. i never have.
i wake up everyday on my own, and i go to sleep on my own, and i am not affected much by what people think of me. i will always be the same no matter what their attitudes to me are.
i can not think in any other way than in the way i can understand, and so i am not amenable to "corrective" suggestions, unless they are compelling.
b9 wrote:
i can not tell whether someone is telling the truth, no matter how "heart rending" their dramatic performance.
TaupeyAna wrote:
I have trouble with this as well. That's why I'm happier when I'm not around other people. But I also know not everyone is the enemy.
i do not see anyone as enemies. i see people as divorced totally from my being, but i can like them and they can like me. if i do not understand them, i will not talk to them, and if i do understand them, but do not agree with what they say, i will say what i think is correct.
i have recently realized that my judgement of my "correctness" is insufficient to authorize my ideas.
but that is an insignificant realization, because my ideas can not be stopped or modified.
god i have to go.