Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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my mum sent me an email telling me not to contact my cousins and aunts husband and to un-friend them on facebook. i don't know why or what this means and i like one of my cousins and i don't want to play their games either. this is so stupid.
and it was my birthday today and as i expected it was crappy. my dad started pulling on my hair telling me it was covering my face and generally making me feel bad about it whilst taking pics which will undoubtedly end up on facebook and my sister told me his aunt wanted to take me out so she could get me a dress. i hate dresses. i havent liked them since early primary. i have told everyone this. my hatred of dresses is a fundamental aspect of my being. it is something that my parents and i argued about forever. she doesnt know me at all and i wish she'd stop stereotyping me.

Constant itch in all of my major muscles is driving me crazy. I don't know what the right name for it is - think of it like a daytime version of RLS but full-body. I get it from time to time, have had it most of my life and it seems to kick up during certain seasonal changes more. Right now I'm at the office, really wish I could do pushups or beat the heck out of a heavy bag. The pro-hand in my desk is good but not enough to cut it.

I don't have any hot water. The landlord is supposed to come today for something else but I don't know when and that doesn't mean that he will. I worked up the nerve to call him but no one answered. I won't talk on answering machines.

I also recently found out that now there are 4 people ahead of me on the list for an apartment. I thought there was only one person ahead of me. I think I might feel a lot better after I finally move, at least after I have a few days or weeks to settle in and get adjusted to the new place. I've lived in my current apartment for 30 years so it's pretty old and run down. I need something fresh and new and fully up to code. I want to have a hot water heater that isn't shared with another apartment and a thermostat that I can control myself. Also when my turn finally comes up and I get to move in my new place I can probably get a cat or a dog. I think my mother wants a cat more but a dog would get me out of the house more to walk it.

Waking up on the floor, very hung over. Spending the entire day feeling ill.
The internet messing up, might be a day or two before it's sorted.
Not knowing where i stand and not understanding why it has to be that way.
Getting bored of wp mostly and not really having anything interesting to do for 99% of my day.
Feeling guilty for dropping wow mates because i got bored of it overnight, some of them ive known for years. At least i know that they are actual mates though i guess, i like how a few of them actually went out of their way to find out where i was, what people do is so much more meaningful and telling than the words they're using. Meaning > delivery.

The school's internet is sooooo slow.

I started the at-home exercises my physical therapist gave me and now my back and neck hurt. I'm scared to do more of them.

It seems like everything is bothering me lately and I can't wait to move. I think a new place with new things will make me feel better. I've been living here for 30 years and have a landlord that does nearly all repairs himself. The new place when my turn comes up will be all nice and fixed up and when something breaks they'll send an actual plumber or electrician or whatever to fix it.

Today my landlord "finished" fixing the bathroom outlet which still hums and bothers me so much I keep the light off since that cuts the power off to the outlet and stops the humming. That outlet gives me a lot of anxiety and if it gets louder severe panic attacks.

Then the hot water heater stopped working and the landlord did something with that. This wasn't the first time it did that. Now the burners on the stove don't work even though the pilot lights are lit. (now they lit when the stove cooled down)

I feel like lately something or other is always setting off a panic attack in me and I have no insurance or money to get help. Various strong or out of place or unidentifiable sounds and smells give me panic attacks.

I seem to have misplaced my eye...

I spent 5 hours working on a project for school, a project i didn't even care about, then took the wrong flash drive today when it was due...

r.i.p ipod i will miss you. we shared lots of good times.
water killed my ipod

Got news today that my Nana's corroted (sp?) artery is 90% blocked and she could have a stroke at any moment. That was how all of her siblings died, by the way. She's having surgery in two weeks. I'm really irritated that they couldn't get her into surgery sooner. I'm not going to stop worrying about her until she actually comes out of surgery.

Nana lives in Denver, Colorado, but two of her children (one of my aunts and her brother, my uncle) are going to go take care of her after she has surgery. Neither of them have jobs so they can always be there for her. My parents would go but they both work full time. However, they told me that if anything goes wrong, we're flying out there.