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I have to get an endoscopy done 2 days after my birthday.

In therapy, my counselor asked about my relationship with my mother. I don't have a relationship with my mother. She chose to terminate contact with me some 47 years ago while I was an undergraduate in college.

I thought I was over my mother but momentarily felt quite angry over the physical and emotional abuse I suffered as a child at the hands of this woman. When I remembered that my father's passing last March ended his alimony payments to my mother, I felt better. My mother has long since fallen upon hard times and without my father's alimony payments, it's possible that she could become homeless now that she's in her 90's.

I found that I really don't care if my mother becomes homeless or not. Although I have the means to help her, I won't. As the 18th century author, Pierre Choderlos de Laclos observed in his novel, Les Liaisons dangereuses" (Dangerous Liaisons - first published in 1782), "La vengeance est un plat qu'il vaut mieux servir froid," Revenge is a dish that is best served cold."

If my mother wanted a loving son, she should have loved and supported me as a child instead of exiling me to the basement and telling me on a nearly daily basis, that I was stupid and ugly.

Sorry about how bitter this post may have sounded. The therapist really hit a nerve today.

Anxiety

Yes indeed - once is quite enough.

I still have a cold. I'm going to lay down and sleep.

My son has a fever, sore throat, body aches, etc.


My daughter said 1/3 of people in USA have Covid right now.
We aren't in USA and haven't been, but is that right? ^

Also she said there's something called White Lung Pneumonia going around.

OK, good to know, but inflammation and white blood cells indicate that you're sick regardless.
They also indicate pneumonia.

I'm scared for my friend who is actively dying of Mesothilioma.
He's on hospice care at home but one of his visitors gave him a cold that will likely kill him.
My brother was staying there to care for him but he caught it too, and it was brutal.
He had to go home.

Our friend can't have any more visitors because of it.
We will never see him again.

Thanks.
It's been really, really hard for us to deal with.
He's like an adopted brother to us.
My parents knew him from the day he was born (age 58).


I get that about the White Lung thing, too.

It sounded like a new thing when it really isn't.
I guess the point is that bacterial pneumonia is going around.
I suppose it could be viral too.

I experienced some anxiety today, that lasted a while. It made me uncomfortable.

I've never heard of white lung pneumonia.