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I'm watching Gods Bicep on youtube playing Resident Evil 4 remake game mod as a chicken on hell insane difficulty!

I'm still looking for a work at home job.

But I have to navigate potential scammers and hackers...
And there's this lack of discernment whether I can commit or even be capable of doing the job itself...


Yeah, I can be 'confident', but that doesn't necessarily mean good -- nor that I'd learn from whatever screw up that I can spot if I even spot one at all.

It's like... This lack of discrimination between aggression and assertiveness, recklessness and decisiveness. Yeah I get the definitions but in performance?? Sigh.

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i watched Lost till the fifth season and just gave up

SO many to study and learn.

So little time...

What am I expecting?

Oh well.

I should remember my priorities for this year.
I don't recall learning and having a job for a priority -- it's my health and getting rid of layers of years of ignored crap.

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Bouncy castles and inflatables.
And I can't wait till the spring so I can use mine and hire an adult bouncy castle too!

Summer and St Patrick's Day. Green. Anything that's green like summer and peas.

I already miss having a noisy car. I wish I could just have a straight pipe (ideally dumping out the side).

In which this person (the idea of me) did not choose to be born.
Yet I (the soul) likely did.

And this lifetime feels like one of those...
Binges.

You know that feeling of overwhelm and boredom after several hours of watching a series like some voluntary marathon?

That the details starts to blur and become incomprehensible, each scene or episode feels like a repetitive filler?

That instead of appreciating or taking a deep look in every scene, you'd just want it to end?
Then just to endure all of that without a break just for the sake of saying that 'I completed this series'?



And supposedly, I am the creator of every scene?
Then what... Why the lack of total control? The lack of choices?

Sure, technically I have the choice to just get up in bed right now at 3am, walk 20 mins away to a 7/11 store without my wallet, while wearing nothing but a towel dress, just to steal some stationery and pen and draw random semi realistic faces and ask strangers to hitch hike until the next 3 cities that I never been to before.

All and all that just boiled down to "I don't feel like it".
Doesn't matter WHY or how reasonable. I have a fricking choice to just make an interesting damn day and do something new, but no.

F-- dysregulation.
Damn this body's cocktail of reactions and this head's softwares.
Whether I do something or nothing, I cannot ignore this shite miserable "feeling" that comes and go for no reason.

Doesn't matter the source; even something as so slight as hunger and thirst.
I wish I can just ignore it. It's not even pain.

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Miraculously, the power grid held together.

Gay marriage in Japan is on my mind. I’m 29 and fairly healthy, with a lot of years left on the clock, but I have a sinking feeling I’m just going to straight-up run out of time before it is legalized

I hope the maintenance supervisor likes my new perfume...

Terry Ryan just signed to ECHL's Newfoundland Growlers and played his first game in 21 years. He got to spend his 47th birthday playing pro hockey after being out for over two decades.

^ Wow! At what age do players usually retire?

My most expensive pair of glasses.
Total costs around my old job's whole month worth of salary.

The len's angling was right that I don't have to bend any parts to make it comfortable, the whole thing is more lightweight.
And it's firm that I don't need to also bend it to fit more comfortably on my head.

I like it.

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The fact that my head hurts when I cry