Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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should have worn extra layers.

yeah, californians feeling cold. eh. some would KILL to be over here and experience relative warmth.

Got jury duty summons for Feb 11th. My first jury duty summons.

nothing

Maintenance has still not come to fix toilet.

The absolutely cold air.

Like the Black Knight said, "I'm not dead yet".

Some character got me confused with another recycler. He came around the corner with a stupid cigarette in his hand and told me to give him back his cans. He tried to take my bags away from me and he also tried to kick my can over. He called me a little trespassing b***h and told me that he phoned the cops on me. He also told me that I was going to jail. He also told me that if I came around again, I'll be dead. He also said that he knows who I am. His mother or grandma drove to the intersection and called me a f*****g, rotten b***h. She also told me that she phoned the cops on me.

My biggest guess is that they were both autism haters and that guy could tell that I'm on the spectrum just by looking at my face. He decided to violate my trust in the human race by using the cops and prison as a thread. My anxiety is going through me like gangbusters and that incident happened to me 14 hours ago. I'm staying in my side of town when I recycle from now on. I'm not going to the old neighbourhood and its surrounding areas anymore.

NYE BBQ has been called off and we're going out instead. So I bought drinks yesterday for nothing, and now I have to buy more tonight while I'm out. f**k em, I'm having one now.

I wanted to go to a BBQ with friends for new years but I'd already promised my family I'd drive them to this other thing. Once again I'm spending new years with my lame mun and mt lame grandparents instead of people my own age

My roommate got mad at me for waking him up in the middle of the night... again. I don't even know how I managed to wake him up.

Also, my plans to hang out with my uncle were ruined because he's sick with the flu.

I was extremely busy today and forgot my credit card, transport card etc.

Also, I bought watermelon but it turned out to have a yukky texture (probably old but not rotten). I had to throw it away.

Being charged £6 for 2 tablets at the vet and I can get them for 25p online but that's holiday time for you!

i was talking to tammy on the phone today when she rang, and i did not have much to say.
i was standing by the window looking out to the front lawn and the road, and i remarked on my little family of red wattle birds that i was watching feeding on some grated cheese i had sprinkled for them before.

there are 4 of them. a mother and a father and 2 chicks. i know this by deduction (too long to describe). there must also be a chick in their nest somewhere over the road that is too young to fly, because the mother loads up her beak with a few strands of grated cheese and fly's off over the road often.

she loaded her beak and flew off while i was talking to tammy, and as she flew over the road, she dropped a piece of cheese and she stupidly flew down to retrieve it and a car went straight over her and all that was left was a motionless little pile of feathers blowing in the wind stuck to the road.

i felt like i was going to die. i hung up on tammy without explanation, and i was forced to feel emotions that i am glad i do not have to feel often.

the world did not seem to notice her sudden departure from it. the wind blew as it did moments before. the sun did not go away. the bees kept flying in the same manner around the flowers beside the porch. everything went on without a hitch, and i do not know.... how could something who meant so much to me be of no significance to any procedure of reality? how could nature not even blink at what had just happened?

it was like there was a bowling ball suddenly stuffed into my chest cavity, and it was most uncomfortable. i am usually very robotic, and, like my avatar, i see only simply, and i feel very basic in my consciousness, but today....

today i know why it is better to be just a machine.

Nothing.

I got frustrated with my mom because I did not ask her to help clean up/put things away in my room. I feel bad now.

Knowing that there will be loud fireworks later on. :/