Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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Just waking up f**k mondays.

Not enough coffee in me yet.

Nothing

First Colbert, now Stewart's leaving.

Coles has stopped Home deliveries you now have to order online for your groceries . Not happy jan.

There's crackling in my phone line meaning my net might drop out while I'm typing this.

Theres a guy on my facebook from the course that i'm studying. He always posts this nervous self centered stuff. Just recently he got extensions for his assignments because of his anxiety, he works out all the time, a true metrosexual who preens and poses constantly (He even beat boxes). Just recently he went to see a psychologist on the NHS and left a long post complaining that the psychologist didn't take his diagnosis of depersonalisation/derealistation condition seriously. A conditions hes never been diagnosed as before, it makes me unhappy when people self diagnose and then blame the doctors for not agreeing with them. I had a friend who did the same with autism a few years back, just one day decided he was autistic after reading about autism and determinedly pursued doctors until he finally got the diagnosis he wanted. It annoys me that people see mental health as some sort of icon, like a Louis Vuitton bag that will get them either attention or sympathy these days.

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I used to have a bike that never broke and the closest thing to the bike breaking was a flat tire.
One day someone decided to steal my bike and I still got a new bike at the same day that we bought online, only thing was that it was one of those "grandmother bikes" that break easily and aren't made for exercising.
I also got another bike which worked fine but that bike got also stolen and that was in the same week.
The other bike broke multiple times and I have been walking to the train station for college every day ever since it broke.
I'm tired of coming late in class because I missed the train again. Every week I miss the train at least once or twice because of this.
Today I decided to take another broken bike that we had for a while (It was a Batavus bike that you could also use to exercise) to the bike repair shop and the person told me that if everything would go fine that my bike would be finished by 4 in the afternoon.
When I came home from college I heard that the bike had a part that was damaged and couldn't be fixed.
And now I'm in an angry mood, the only other option is to repair the old bike again and probably break the chain again on my way home a few days later and have to walk again.
I also can't go cycling in my free time anymore which was my outlet when I just wanted to enjoy some music and get all my energy out.
Nowadays I just have to walk and run when I listen to music and I look like an absolute idiot because I'm running around the village in regular clothes, I look stupid when I run, I get tired easily and I have to hold my breath when I'm trying to pass someone. It's just awkward and embarrassing and absolutely not fun to do.
Ever since I have to travel by train instead of my bike I gained 1,5 kilograms and I have only been to college for 5 months.
It's not a lot since I just weigh 63kg but it's getting on my nerves that I can't just get on my bike and move whenever I want to.

Yesterday I got to borrow my brother's bike to get the pizza that we ordered and the chain of his bike broke on my way there, I had to walk to home and fix his bike.

I can't believe that one or two people that I don't even know could ruin my hobbies so much by just taking my bike away.

Whenever I'm angry I just want to throw a bouncy ball off a high building with so much power that it bounces all the way to another planet to an alien with the same problem.

This is worse than unhappy, this is frightening... earlier today I heard a ton of sirens going off by the high school across the street but didn't think much about it because I've seen the police show up at that school lots of times. But then I heard someone pounding on my door and naturally by the time I got downstairs to answer they were gone but back upstairs I looked trough my window and the whole school is roped off and there was a body lying on the ground with a sheet over it. It looked like a male adult but it could be a teen.

I still have no idea what happened. Was someone murdered? Was it suicide? Is the murderer still around and the police were at my door to warn me? I have nowhere safe to go, my parents are now away in Jamacia, and I'm alone.
Someone was filming or taking pictures so I might see something on the news...

Someone was killed near my apartment for the first time ever, and what was I doing at that moment? Playing Tomadachi Life on my 3Ds where I'm concerned about a bunch of fake characters.

The idea is nothing.

I just found out on the news that the student who was killed near my apartment was hit from behind by the school bus. There's so much snow piled up everywhere you're lucky drivers can see you and the sidewalks are barely walkable. Oh, and they said the student was in a special needs class...

When my mother has to drive around the school she says the students just walk right in front of her instead of waiting for her to stop or drive by. When my parents get back from their trip I'll have to advise them to be extra careful. In spite of what I say about those kids I don't really want my parents responsible for their being killed, and if I'm in the car with them I'll probably have a heart attack.

And by the time the sidewalks are clear and there's less snow, it'll be too wet to be out walking. And then it will too hot. Weather sucks.

I feel frustrated.

The wind chill outside, it is currently at -8 right now, tomorrow it is supposed to be -11 no reason to go out tomorrow.

I just read that B.C. is ranked as the healthiest province in Canada, while my home province is only slightly less worse than Newfoundland.

I'm not really surprised that N.S. got a D for health since I've know for years that we're not exactly known for a healthy lifestyle. When I was a kid at school we were told that there was more smoking and more lung cancer here than any other province. People smoked around me all the time when I was growing up, it's only because it's been banned in public that they don't any more. And don't even get me started on the Tar Ponds, a horrific toxic mess that I thought they were never going to clean up in my lifetime. Apparently my chances of getting cancer tripled just by moving to the only "city" on the island. But someone said that B.C. is the only province worth living in because of the milder temperatures, the rest of Canada is horrible because the sub-zero temperatures keep us indoor most of the time. Well, all that rain they get must be great for growing mold and mildew...

Never mind, I'll have them carve that into my gravestone "Here lies (my real name), 1974-20?? (she was left handed, had Aspergers AND lived in Nova Scotia". I should have died at least a decade ago.

I would have posted this yesterday, but never got around to it.

My fiancé and I were supposed to start a joint bank account yesterday, but it never occurred to me to bring my ID with me. So now I have to come back at least later today. I am stressing more and more about money and finances, because I will be losing my SSI once I marry, and I haven't heard back from my fiancé's workplace to see if I am able to work there (I am supposed to hear back sometime today, though.)

And no, I will not leave my fiancé just for the sake of money.