Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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A few days ago I hurt my back while we were moving grandfathers chair out to the car to donate. It's gotten better but now I have sharp quick chest pains every 10 minutes.

Not necessarily something today but it's something that has made me increasingly angry over the weekend. Work is changing SMSF accounting programs and we have to take a crash course in it so we can use it come the start of the new financial year. The training material consists of rushed webinar lectures and nothing more, no written tutorials or anything. I can't learn from these kinda lecture things so I'm pretty stuffed (I'm better at learning from written material and teaching myself). There's about 8 modules in it and if I don't absorb the material from one lecture I have to wait a whole month to watch it again.

Worst part about it is the lectures are run on a Tuesday when I'm normally at the other office, so I have to work in my normal office that day instead (where I don't have much work left to do as it is. At least at the other office I can do something productive). I have to miss this week as I booked in my car to get fixed. I didn't know at the time of booking that these lectures would be a weekly thing. I missed the one on Thursday because I thought it was on at 2pm so I went for my normal lunch, not checking that it was actually on at 1pm. So I sat there eating my lunch in my room and not a single person came to remind me it was on, because as I suspect they didn't want me in there to begin with. They pretty much stopped sending me the module notes after that too. I'm only in there because one of the partners asked me to go because he felt I should be learning about the new program too. Absolutely nobody else even mentioned it to me.

This is just another case of people trying to deny me access to new skills so I fall behind. Even if it's not deliberate and they just don't think of me it's still offensive. It's like they think I'm not competent enough anyway so when it comes to new things (things that are needed to know in order to do, y'know, OUR JOBS) they don't even tell me about them. They walk straight past me and tell the person in the next room instead.

Nothing. I am a bit tired but it does not make me unhappy.

I was walking though a place where there are big rain puddles, and near one there was a smashed bird.
I sometimes see birds splashing around taking baths in the puddles. I think one of them got run over by a car.

Seeing a past Fb post of one of my sister's, where she called our mother "My mother", and it reminded me of all the times, growing-up, when each of my sisters called their mother "My mother", and my always wondering: "Well, who is MY mother, then?"

I am tired.

People are too f*cking loud, SHOUTING everything they say.

Family members SHOUTING their comversations while sitting right next to one another.

TV news anchors SHOUTING their reports despite the microphone clipped to the lapels of their jackets.

People on the phone SHOUTING despite speaking into an amplifying microphone speaker.

I know I have sensitive hearing, but that's neither here nor there. It's still obnoxious as hell.

I hate losing friends through time/distance. I guess I'm clingy.

I'm having more issues than usual with WP.

Crippling anxiety that's been causing the tight-chest feeling for most of my waking hours for the last few weeks.

Lost another person off my friend's list on FB because I was being too literal or something.
Maybe she was just looking for an excuse to unfriend me.

There was a girl at college who said "You made me look like a person with autism" to her friend because she embarassed her.
I guess she was joking but those kind of jokes were people use autism or autist to point out something weird are just not funny, I wish I could do something about it but giving the same speech to her about my autism just like I did to my class in 10th grade would probably not help here.

I tried to block someone with the username sAMY for their anti-autistic posts, such as agreeing with the writer of a book who says he wishes his autistic son could had cancer instead, but for some reason I couldn't. People who say things like that make my blood boil. One of the reasons I come to WP is because I feel that here I am allowed to be myself, but instead I end up feeling like garbage because of what people like this say.

My coffee is nearly empty.

My laptop battery now seems incapable of charging past 82% capacity, and 8 gigs of RAM is becoming increasingly inadequate.

The former is expected from a laptop that's two years old, but the latter I can probably blame on today's websites overloading everyone's browsers with video ads.

My ISP seems to be throttling me. 20 minutes to download 74 MB?

The one thing that made me unhappy in general (not just today) was the fact that this chick I'm talking to is being a complete b***h all because I didn't see her for 2 days this past weekend. It makes sense to a certain extent, but once you start analyzing things, it really exposes the true colors of everything going on. I don't know, maybe I'm overreacting, but I could be right for all we know. I mean, we used to like each other back in 2011 and now a couple years later we're finally talking and dating and calling and texting and s**t, but after not seeing her for the weekend - like I keep mentioning - she went from being my RX Queen (Deftones reference evidently) to being Cruela de Vil. Oh, one more thing, I keep getting told women use their vagina for control towards men - which I can slightly agree upon. So, we f****d like the second date - oh, it was also the second time ever freaking meeting & ever since then she's been acting way off and stuff. I don't know, maybe one of you will tell me she's a whore or something. One last thing, she told me her ex logged on to her Instagram this past Sunday...maybe I'm a rebound? I don't know like I keep mentioning.

PLS HALP~