I confess.....

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I confess that I'm getting kinda burnt-out with forums & other things with the net. I'm not in a posting mood much. I think I'm kind of burnt-out on my life & want a change to happen like getting a job

I confess need to clean my kitchen,

Last edited by richardbenson on 15 Nov 2010, 1:50 pm, edited 1 time in total.

i noticed that. missed you around here, though i totally understand. i'm cutting back on WP too.

I confess, If I should had actually came back to WP..

I confess that I often wonder what it's like to be with another woman, but I'm too nervous to answer the "women seeking women" craigslist ads.

I confess, I've probably destroyed a great deal of potential happiness for myself...

I confess that while lighting a cigarette after eating ribs, I started a grease fire in my mustache

I've seen women kiss and stuff

its as awesome as one thinks

Forgot to mention my wife almost knocked my teeth in slapping the fire out

I confess that I like The Red Site where everything is red.

I confess that I feel really guilty, as all I was trying to do was to get reassurance that I was still valued and that the friendship would stay the same. I wasn't trying to upset anyone, and I didn't think that what I said would, as I made it clear that anything that could possibly have made someone feel bad was in the past and not an issue now, and that it was just change that had triggered the memory of the pain, which is what was really upsetting me.
*edit* That, and the fact that the in-person thingy seemed like a change in the landscape of things, which made me panic (I am not good with change), and triggered a lot of bad memories. They, in turn, triggered unresolved grief, as back when all the bad stuff happened, I hadn't allowed myself to feel simply sad; I was going between wishing I was dead and thinking that I had to make myself be completely happy, otherwise I'd be a bad person. It did make the pain and loss that I'd felt feel more immediate, real and vivid, but I tried to make it clear that that was in the past, and that the pain now was not due to wishing things would change. I'm fine with how things are now.
All the things I'd mentioned as matters of sadness were past tense, and I thought I'd made that clear. All the tears and the sad posts were catharsis/due to realising that I hadn't allowed myself to grieve properly.

I really did not mean to make anyone feel bad. I thought I made it clear that I was just getting things out of my head that were haunting me but no longer issues. I thought I made it clear that he should not feel bad. I said so outright. I am happy that he is so happy. I am happy that things are going well. I told him this. I would have been dismayed if things had gone badly.
I wish I was better at predicting the effect of my words on people.

I spent Friday & Saturday with a friend helping him move some stuff out of storage. I need to try to briefly check certain sections here but I'm getting kind of tired talking about the same stuff. i go true phases thou

I confess that the last 2 unread messages did not mention pain, as I was done with getting past issues off my chest. The first is basically saying that I am glad the day was good and glad that it is known that things in person with them are as good as online. The second is an apology.
Neither contains anything that could possibly make anyone feel bad.

I confess that, try as I might, I cannot remember the last time I cried.

Meh. Women are so...soft.

I confess that I think that people who don't cry are lucky.