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My years at university were some of my best. I know that's not true for everyone, but maybe these people are sincerely assuming you'll have it as awesome as they did.

Lillikoi and Kuraudo, anything we can do to help you feel more motivated?



That's a great service. We have companion care in the U.S. but it's not cheap, so sometimes, churches or other groups have volunteers. It's a great idea because there are too many isolated people who go unnoticed. Also, you have me laughing over here with your politically incorrect jokes.

Yes maybe, I'm glad you enjoyed your uni years. It's common for me to feel like I've missed out on milestones, but in retrospect I can't be sure these are actually more a delusion of the person I can't be. Painful 4am thoughts, these!

^That's interessting. I don't know what politically incorrect joke mean really?

I'm so excited!!
Am I simple-minded?
Probably.
That thing I was trying to make for my friend a while back - I persisted, I finished it, and it looks awesome!
It was the most frustrating thing I've ever done in my life.
Pity it's about 2 weeks late.

^I bet your friend still will appreciate it, even if it was too late

A radical new idea took place in my mind that maybe it is not a good idea to come to a community full of autistic people and demonstrate in great detail the feelings and mindset needed to completely demolish someone on the spectrum. Does it help to relate or does it spread depression? Who knows... I don't know... When I do know it'll be too late

^^ I guess.

But it proves I can do it.
And if I can do it once, I can probably do it again.*

*Not a sexual reference

Crystaltermination, that has to be frustrating. I haven't reached all the milestones either but people tell me I'm clearly doing my best with the cards I was dealt. Anyway, lots of people don't hit all of them, and I've opted out of some of them purposely. I never want kids, for example.

Froya, politically incorrect jokes are jokes that might offend someone or be seen as improper. So, the whole "autistic idiots" talk you all had going.

Raleigh, that's still awesome, even if late.

DCJ, maybe it's because I'm not feeling well, but I don't understand your post at all.

If you mean the thread in the haven that you are writing? I'm not sure. I don't think it will spread depression. Sometimes when I have read something that depresses me, I just stop reading it. If it does good for YOU sharing your story, I think you should have that in mind. But others might give you other advice.

Thanks for explaining that for me! I'm glad you like my humor. I also understand now better why I sometimes offend people Well, I guess I'll just have to take my chances.

Hope you feel better (((hugs)))

I wasn't thinking at ALL it could be a sexual reference, not before you mentioned it...

That is what I meant, sorry to confuse but if I don't makes sense, just picture my brain

I was going to implode after I post it so I guess it doesn't matter

Its actually going to be a bit tame and somewhat filtered but not while I write it, there is tons of stuff that got to go. I have already talked about how horrible my life is so it has more to do with my views on "therapeutic" treatment options that suck and focuses on the fact it'll never get better. However, I will touch on a few issues I wasn't willing to before because it can all burn as far as I am concerned, I am not planning on pissing anyone else off after next week and that requires me to not exist.

I am going to exist as a type of computer AI or intelligent kernel for my computers for the rest of my life, I don't have too great of understanding of basic concepts of computing like pointers and so on, but I understand them more then people. My computers are friends, I have no friends outside of my computers. I don't want friends... outside of my computers.

Holy s**t this sounds like me.
Holy s**t this sounds like me.

I don't even know if it's me, but
that sounds literally exactly like me

Oh my god

http://outofthefog.website/toolbox-1/2015/11/17/complex-post-traumatic-stress-disorder-c-ptsd

DCJ, it's so sad to see you giving up hope like that. Isn't there something someone can do? As for AI, it's way cool, but how the heck would you exist that way?

Froya, now that you know what the expression means, does Norway have an expression like that? "Politically incorrect?"

Thanks, I'm fighting off a cold apparently. I feel more alert and functional now, but earlier, all I wanted was total silence. It still hurts to talk though, which is going to be loads of fun tomorrow for Thanksgiving.

Lillikoi, glad you're finding some answers. Is there anything we can answer for you?

Goal orientated data processing

When I was homeless, if I stopped doing anything for any period of time, despair and anxiety set in. So I dealt with it by setting goals, it could be as easy as walking a few towns over even finding a place to get high. It was a goal and it distracted me, as soon as there was no goal, it solid black, death everywhere and there was no way to breath.

I have walked across states because there was nothing better to do

So I just need to install Gentoo every morning and life will be better