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Thanks. He isn't tormenting me, I think he's thinking somehow I made it an excuse that I didn't get in contact, I dunno.

Either that or he thinks I'm dreadfully unattractive, or something.

He should just talk to me.

I say no more as, to let you deal with any difficulties of your own accord but, you have my honorable sympathies though,

Thank you.

your welcome

Maybe you have dyslexia. If so, that has nothing to do with intelligence.

I should really try to calm down so that I can go to bed, but I'm just not in that state of mind. This might be a night of little sleep I'm afraid. Tomorrow I'll probably finish up in the apartment, and put the rest of the stuff down in the storageroom in the cellar. Then it's ready for the Firm to start working.

What's keeping you from sleeping? Excited about the apartment?

No, I get like that sometimes. It might not be a good sign, as sometimes when I go several days with little sleep I eventually crash emotionally. Sometimes I don't know why I feel bad, like the other day when I teared up on the buss for apparently no reason

You always seem to be going without sleep Froya!

I am the same way. You can't switch your brain off when you need to, and the toll it takes leaves you emotionally volatile.

No, If I've given that impression that's not right. I also sleep long nights like 12-15 houres A few years back I could sleep for 18-20 houres. It's the in between I'm not good at I think.

The last part you mention can absolutely be correct for me too. I'm not sure if it's "only" the lack of sleep that triggers the emotions, as I wonder if there is something emotional brewing underneath that tenses me up in the first place, and causes the lack of sleep.

^ My mistake 18-20 hours, wow!

I think you're right to wonder. I get a curious feeling to accompany the insomnia that I can't quite place, I expect it's part of (if not the cause of) the emotional stuff.

Sometimes I feel like I don't need to sleep, which is obviously not true. Some chemicals have to be off somewhere to give my brain that impression!

possibly returning to university after so much time

I'm like a kitty. I need lots of sleep.

I really need the weekend to be here. I'm sick of the world for the week.

I wonder what a golly gosh burrito tastes like. Or great galloping gumdrops.

Where does something go when you gosh dang it to heck? More importantly, how does a gun have a son?

These are the world's mysteries.

I feel sick. I've just found out I've lost even more weight I couldn't afford to lose. Food hates me, and so does life. I think I'm stumping my doctor.
The boy I like hasn't emailed me back yet. He hates computers but really likes me (it seems anyway, everyone has said we have a mutual crush on each other but only when he can't hear because he'd brutally murder them) so it's really a "will he won't he" kind of a thing.
I want to see three different movies but I can only see one. I'm trying to decide if I'll wear my halterneck or if I should throw it in the wash but I've only worn it once this week.
My teachers are frustrating. School supposedly ends today but I keep working through. Most of them and a quite a few other people I know say I'm overloading myself and will burn out before the end of next year. Mum says I'll be fine & I agree but that's really not the point. These people keep saying I need to take a break but what with? Leaving the house is stressful, I don't have any friends nearby to hang out with me, procrastinating with anything stresses me out even though I'm really good at it, I'm allergic to nice food (the list of allergies could fill the TARDIS engine room), and I'm so stressed right now that my old fall-backs of reading & computer games tire me. Also known as MY LIFE SUCKS.
Plus a whole bunch of really bad terrible awful not-nice memories are resurfacing for very little reason and I am freaking out.
So not too much today.