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Well I haven't said things to people faces and have hid behind other threads too but for what its worth, I have trouble thinking sometimes and something is wrong with me, I haven't figured out what yet. I try to be reasonable to people, I just have really bad social skills so block me too lol. Actually its not a bad idea, I have done the same, I pretty much never log into steam and I isolate more and more. People suck, I am no different really though I don't think I would have expressed my problems the way he expressed his.

^ and on that note, no one changes, people just hate what they end up as such as myself,

Nothing, really.

Wow..... I had just gotten out of bed, and was sitting in my bathrobe. Then one of my upcomming neighbours calls me and says he has no water. Then the stress beginns that lasted for three hours.. I just couldn't controll it, but I knew I didn't need to be that stressed. So I ran through the shower and on to the bus. Well, after several phonecalls, and a plummer had to come also, we figured it out. My stress level was like someone was out to kill me or something... CRAZY... Everyone around me though was calm. I still haven't calmed down completely.

We tend to see things through our own experiences in life. It's important to look objectively because our core beliefs may or may not be compatible with experiences of those we analyze. Some people are attracted to dominant, abusive personalities likely shaped from past experiences and fall into that same trap repeatedly. Some may eventually learn that this behavior is destructive and stop the cycle. Personally, I believe being young at heart and/or not conforming with the social norm isn't necessarily a bad thing. As the saying goes, to each their own.

I figure some people genuinely don't understand what they are doing when they are destructive because they can't understand how it is from other peoples perspectives and this is how destructive relationships are formed because the other person in the relationship will often just not see why unless they can read people. People would often say that's common with autism but no, it's common everywhere, there are NTs out there who genuinely are so self centered they can't even comprehend what their actions have on others. An example of this would be a girl who went on a date with a guy and he wouldn't stop bragging or talking about himself and never asked her anything about herself so she said she was going to the toilet and went home instead.

It's fine being young at heart unless you're causing problems for other people. There's a threshold you can reach where being young at heart becomes a problem I think. I don't think it has much to do with society honestly, it's more about the fact that they've been on this earth long enough to understand when they are simply just causing too many problems for others because they think it's entertaining because they have nothing else to do. It's quite a common thing in general rather than just older people, and I do certainly see it a lot in most generations. From what I have learned, some people only have drama that keeps them going, lying about themselves to garner attention and sympathy from others as an example. I find it interesting, psychology in general is interesting. I should have probably aimed for that academically as it's a very complex and fascinating thing.

My original comment was about my grandma, as she likes to argue with the neighbors and she's often in the wrong from a logical viewpoint. I tend to just see that she's bored and the neighbors are bored which is why they have these long street playground battles flinging childish insults at each other. Drama is what keeps some people going at that age from what I've been told though so yes, each to their own.

^ my mother used to fight hammer and tong with one of her neighbours. She accused him (among other things) of stealing her electricity by secretly wiring up his house to hers. This went on for years. She had the energy company out, electricians and even the police, who all told her it was in her head, but she still swore he was stealing her electricity. Mind you, she's on solar and doesn't pay for her electricity anyway.

Then he got cancer and suddenly he wasn't stealing from her any more.

You're right about the boredom and need for drama. I think older people can lose their sense of purpose in life and that's when the trouble starts. They fight amongst themselves to regain some of their lost ego. Don't know how that worked in my mother's case, she just ended up looking stupid.

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What does hammer and tongs mean? In what sort of fight would there be a hammer and tongs involved?

Sometimes I'm whiny or complain a lot in my head, but to meet and interact with me, you'd never guess that.

I think this is what people think of me here now but I don't care anymore.

Plus I have pics if anyone wants to see the real life past drama in my life lol. I actually don't want sympathy for any negativity I bring, but a solution would be nice. There isn't one, so at minimum I am okay with annoying a few people and having them think this or worse, I just need a outlet more then anything. I don't mean to overwhelm anyone but this is kind of my emotional dumping ground so I can fake being normal once a week to my therapist, once a month to my doctor and every once and a while around my family.

Sorry, mate.
Am I being too strayan for ya?

Hammer and tong
Australian slang meaning: to go hard at something, put all your effort and power into it.
Comes from the days when blacksmiths would hold flaming metal with tongs and bash it into shape.

Well, time for me to relax. I got nothing else to do now.

I wish these were the 60s, so I can watch my shows the way they were originally viewed.

Chocolate or something salty and crispy?

Today will be another slow day.

<-- needs to change her ways