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have to get a blood draw early tomorrow. bleh.

Getting in contact with people by phone.

was so addled from hunger due to mandatory fast before blood draw early this morning, that I forgot to use my coupons for a BK breakfast croissant [paid too much, second time in a week! ]

The town in which I currently reside is compounding my depression. The place is inundated with Eastern Europeans, chavs and drunkards. I do not identify with anyone here.

I don't think Cape Breton has ever gotten a tornado warning before. The climate is getting worse every day, how can people be in so much denial about it? Although the weather only got a little stormy, which is what nearly always happens when the weather people predict an impending disaster like a hurricane in Cape Breton. It's as if the storm is thinking "All right I'm gonna cause all kinds of death and destruction and chaos and... wait am I approaching Cape Breton? Pfft, not worth it.".

How can this island that I live on that's so close to the rest of the country that it only takes a few minutes to drive over to the mainland on the road that connects them be so isolated and make me feel so trapped? Of course, I'd feel that way no matter where I lived.

The crafts I was working so hard on were a flop last night. The acrylic paint I was using on two plastic dolls kept peeling off and I was up most of the night trying to get all the paint off them. Whenever I make a craft it never it never turns out perfect as the ones I see on the YouTube videos. What a waste of time and money.

My parents are finally home, which makes me happy of course. But my mom bought me a Dory stuffed animal from the Disney Store. I already have Dory, and Nemo. And they both talk and make ocean sounds. I told her I bought Dory when we went on our trip in July and didn't she not notice her on my hotel bed? Of course it can't be returned or exchanged, so Dory either now has a twin sister or I'll just give the new one away. Or maybe I should just BURN all my Nemo/Dory things since the sequel is sooo horrible for making Gerald the sea lion an autistic stereotype. Give me a break.

I have absolutely no idea what to do with my life.

Nothing.

I just read that some 19-year-olds committed arson and burned down several buildings and that a playground has been deliberately sabotaged by putting shards of glass and junk that could hurt the kids playing in it.

I think the real reason teens do things like this is because they're bored, especially in the summer. They can't find anything better to do in small towns and rural areas because there is nothing around that's youth-friendly for them, so they go do stupid, dangerous things, usually while drunk or high.

So if you think your teens are safer living in a small town, think again. And don't trust them ever. If they tell you they're going to a friend's house to play video games or whatever, call that house and make sure they're actually there doing what they said. Because NT youths lie all the time.

I had a really big meltdown.

Still trying to get over it.

Almost-meltdown tonight, enough to lose control for a moment and throw / break things. Has not happened in many years and I thought I was over this. I was very shocked by it.

I was anxious last night.

The PA system is making demon screeches and it's horrible.

For no discernible reason I felt extremely angry this afternoon whilst volunteering.

Tired rapidly going into the day, tried to read and had a J. Cash C. D on, wondering what I'm gonna do without places to go, a laptop and a lover by my side.

I had a real-life very, very angry argument with a woman in the park today who was talking politics and veganism. I was patient, I was patient, I was patient.....while being lectured.....lectured.....lectured, and not heard, talked over...

And then she played the f*****g age card on me. She tried to invalidate me and what I had to say about political events earlier in BOTH our lives, for being just SIX YEARS younger than her.

I finally lost my freaking SH1T on her. I went off like a f*****g rocket on her verbally. I'm not sorry, but I am unhappy and angry because I'm SICK of people like her and there's no reasoning with them.

And once again even though I'm fifty-freaking-four, someone is talking down to me, treating me like child, not hearing me, and trying to invalidate anything I say. And playing the age card.

When -- seriously WHEN --- do I get to be the person who gets to do that? I feel like it never gets to be my turn. Older are disrespectful to me. Younger are disrespectful to me. I was so patient with this jerk until I just couldn't take the BS anymore.