Icarus_Falling wrote:
And speaking of writers, I confess,
I miss RainSong. I mean, I know she (you) is (are) still here; but ever since the school term started, her (your) long, rambly confessionals have dwindled to nearly nothing.

Once upon the days of your, I so enjoyed bandying words with her (you), and thus confusing or perturbing so much of the audience. Some things are best left to yore, but I think that is not one of them.
Good fortune,
- Icarus curses essays
I'm here.
I confess that essays have taken a lot of my desire to write away, yes. I have them far more often than not (I have one this evening and another for the weekend, actually; I should have had it done yesterday, but naturally, I procrastinated; I doubt I'll get it done tonight either), and far more often than not I sit there and sit at the paper blankly. I don't want to do them at all, and some of them seem quite beyond me, no matter how well I understand the material.
I confess that beyond that, I've been a lot more "aspie" than usual the past few weeks; heightened sensory issues, a loss of what social understanding I had been able to pick up, and two meltdowns in the past two months (one being this afternoon; I confess I
hate crying in front of people, regardless of whether or not I'm supposed to "trust" them). There have been quite a few times lately where I've had no idea how to reply to something; so I didn't. I confess that I really haven't been getting back to people at all; actually, with the exception of one person, there's an almost guarantee that I won't respond, or that if I do, it will be belated and half done. There's more of chance that I'll respond here, on the public boards; even then, it's iffy. I just don't know what to say anymore.
I confess that I've also not been thinking as I was before; I confess there are quite a few times where there's only silence. I zone out a lot, and I zone out completely.
The above is not a complaint, nor is it an excuse; simply an explanation. I should be able to respond if given a prompt, perhaps; at least, I'll try.
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"Nothing worth having is easy."
Three years!