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After my day off from school today I will inevitably have to go back to school and deal with roommate and school stuff. How fun.

I didn't sleep all that well, so I am tired.
Am at work, doing a dead-end job I hate.

While at work, them local furries decide to pester me with their crap again... On Telegram.
Their drama.... oh, their drama... wish they'd get a grip!
So well done to them fuzzbutts, they have put me in a flithy mood for the rest of the day!

I really hope I get my new glasses today, because the ones I have now are driving me nuts! I have headaches and a funny tic in my left eye.

I know that my classmates like me, but I slowly start to feel invisible in class.

Last week me and my classmate were late for a class so we waited outside in the cafetaria.
When the class ended other classmates entered the cafetaria and the entire class was surprised how I the other classmate wasn't in class and welcomed him and no one looked at me. The other classmate even had to point out that I wasn't in class either.

And it has been happening more and more lately. It's so stupid, I understand that because I'm not that social that most of the class has stopped attempting socializing with me because I always give short answers and sound grumpy/uninterested/sarcastic when I talk because of my autism.
During group assignments I notice that the people I don't work with that often from groups always lose their enthusiasm when they have to work on a group project with me. Often they have a fun moment hanging out with other classmates during breaks and then they come back to work on the project and all their fun energy leaves. I don't want to feel like they are being punished by working with me. I wish I had more enthusiasm and became more talkative.

grogginess

Yet another impromptu party by my upstairs neighbours. Or post club drinking session. Whatever, it's awful. Pounding bass from 2am until 4.30am, then I couldn't get back to sleep until gone 5.30am, and now I'm up at silly o'clock because it's a weekday and the rest of us have things to do.

Shopping.

I slept at @ 5 AM today. Woke up earlier this hour (11:23 AM my time as of this message).

I have a really bad feeling about my future downstairs neighbour. In my head I'm making up the worst scenarios. That probably sounds paranoid. The future will tell if I was right or not.

i hope the future does tell.

i think i've irreparably torn up the inside of my right nostril. ouch.

5 minute impromptu phone call from work, hung up and realised I was all curled up and shaking. I really don't like speaking on the phone .

Turns out I had some more ranting in me after all. They had painted the kitchen ceiling without moving the lamp. I was afraid of that, but I was too late to say anything. Someone is responsible for this, and it's not me! I told the electrician that I was going to have new lamps in all the rooms. Well the guy from the painting firm was a little frustrated, but he said they will fix it. That means they will have to paint the whole ceiling again.

And NO I do not want to socialize with my neighbours. I want to smile, say hallo, maybe comment on the weather, and thats it. I've already been too "nice" and given the impression that I want to chat. I'm too unstable, I can't get close to the people who live in the same building as me. That will just lead to trouble.