What's on your mind right now?

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Looking at various posts around the site, you can see examples of people who experience dramatic personality changes resulting from drug changes. Sometimes the new drugs do just that; fix the problem but not for the person who had it in the first place. Getting rid of the obstacle changes the personality in unpredictable ways.

Another day, another journey....

I am relaxed, my world slowly moves on, like an eternity....

does anybody know a mouse only flash games like this one, so one can play while thinking or memorizing things?

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I like knocking things off my list.

Homework, sleep, food, and how people have conversations.

I want it to be Sunday already.

You want to know what's on my mind right now? What is wrong with men? That's what is on my mind. I had this guy patient last night (not bad looking) and we even had a lot of the same political views except he was more Liberal. Anyway, he happened to say in the first conversation where I met him that he "had no filter". OK, he was talking about poop which doesn't bother me. Any bodily function doesn't really bother me. His "unfilteredness" came out later on. You know, I still don't understand what he thought he was going to gain by what he said to me. If I had been interested, I sure wouldn't have later on. Right out of the blue he just asked if I would like to get in bed with him. Wth? I just said "No" right away and continued as if I didn't hear it. But you know what? It didn't end there. Later on he said he was cold and asked me for a warm blanket - then he asked AGAIN if I would like to get in bed with him to warm him up. I mean, honestly, did he really think that would get him anywhere? Is that the way the public actually views nurses? Give me a break. We're supposed to be professionals. Yeah, I'm going to bed - WITH MYSELF.
PS: I got the guy again tonight.

Broken off ties with an online friend, technically the oldest 'friend' I've ever had - we've exchanged very long emails for a decade. Initially bonded because we were both so messed up from depression, my anxiety, his panic attacks, and our general suspicion of the mental health services. The last two years however, his interests have gravitated from an obsession with guitars and kanji to an obsession with extreme right politics. His posts online have become these rambling diatribes against the world, vitriolic in the extreme, but with increasing negative focus on women. Having watched this build up over years, my heart sinks to know this isn't a small phase, something he'll drop as quickly as he dropped his interest in guitars! It's been bizarre how he could maintain a friendly conversation with me and yet step closer and closer to advocating violence and terrorism. I feel so let down.

The girl I've been doing things with. The girl where I felt like there was a chasm between us but I decided to enjoy the friend ship and see where it goes. The chasm has grown deeper. I don't enjoy her company as much anymore. She gets hurt by the slightest things anyone does and takes everything personally. I try to tell her not to let people hurt you. Not to give them that power. She gets testy in her response and says that's the way she is. She has been looking for a job for over a month and I tell her she needs to consider taking something she may not like. She just says "Let's not talk about this." I tread on thin ice anytime I try to council her to keep her from unfriending me like she has so many other people. But the last time we went somewhere she disagreed with me over almost everything I said. My opinion about the place we were eating. The parking situation, or whatever trivial thing where there should be nothing wrong if we have different views about. Yet she had to dig in and get testy. I see the chasm widening, the spark is gone. I will have to as delicately as possible tell her that we are drifting apart and should meet less often.

Does Silver have his unusual name because Giovanni and Ariana concieved him at Mt. Silver?

^ That's what you think of?!

I wish I had the resources to fly Kon Mari out to visit me and help me get organized. I'm trying it on my own, and I guess I'm doing okay. I keep feeling obligations to hold onto things which do not spark joy in me. Cognitive dissonance ensues.

If you don't have joy, it'll make the times you ro have joy more appriciateable. ...right?

Joy is far more than just an emotion. Joy is a state of being.

Eckhart Tolle can probably describe it better than I can at the moment:
http://communicate.eckharttolle.com/news/2013/12/11/the-joy-of-being/