"We kill threads"; Threadkiller Society

Post Reply New Topic

i've only really tried cheddar (besides swiss) I haven't tried anything else.

I eat cheese every day, and I usually have a variety of flavors available.

Whew, what a night. And it isn't over yet.

Oh! My first day of 10th grade was today...
Off to bed...

Ah, 10th grade..... brings back memories. HOLY SH**! !! !! !! That was 8 years ago!! !! !!

3 years for me

Suddenly I felt my back pop, must be gettin' old.

Gotta hit the homework and then the sack.

This is what Meth can do to people.
doesn`t look like much fun, does it
I could have ended up like this..
that is so scary to think about..
Makes me wanna cry when i see the
despair and hopelessness in these
peoples eyes, the confusion
"what happened to me?"

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zmmBwUUPVd8[/youtube]

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=af3RjDntlhs[/youtube]

Last edited by ImTheGuyThatDidThat on 03 Sep 2008, 10:01 am, edited 1 time in total.

I am not going to touch any of that stuff, I have heard that it is suposidly normal for teens to experiment, I have even heard my mum has when she was younger but I have not. I wonder what it is that can put people down this path.

It feels good...at first. Then it turns into your own personal hell
and you see it, but you`re so stuck in it you dont manage to get
out, you just sink deeper and deeper into it.. at the same time
as you think "this is not me, what happened? why am i doing this?"
But after a while on meth you get so sick when you try to stop
that many just cant take the pain and continue, it can feel like the only
option. It hurts like hell to be on it, and it hurts even more to stop.
And often the family-relationships goes to hell in a bad way, so you`re
strung-out, alone and sad for messing everything up, and the reasons to
stop doing it get fewer and fewer... its a dangerous trap. I used it for
some time, i went 4-5 days without any sleep at all, no food, just keeping on
moving, 24/7. It`s hell!! ! Pretty much everything i touched became crap
it felt like, and i hated myself so much for it. I really despiced myself and
what i had become, it tortured me every minut of every day. Sometimes i
ended up doing way to much to fast, just to try to keep the torture away,
to try and snuff the feelings out for good. Luckily i didnt succeed.

Last edited by ImTheGuyThatDidThat on 03 Sep 2008, 8:06 am, edited 1 time in total.

Thats no way to live, some members have said that it makes us aspies feel normal or something along those lines. DO you feel like you have recovered though?

Also I noticed that Claire333 changed her avatar again. Lately I got into another interest which are zombies, I looked up a bunch of Resident Evil movies and then decided to play a zombie game.

It might vary, but i have only met 1! person in all my life that
used it and functioned ok. But he was not happy. Everyone else
took a turn for the worse, fast. I feel i have recovered well, it took
many months to clear up my mind and going throught the guilt
i felt, but i`m clean now and dont have any damage from it worth
mentioning. I think what saved me was that i was not "normal".
I often watched people around me go "insane", but i never did.
No matter how strung out i was there was always! a part of me
keeping it cool, sober in a way. There was always something keeping
me on my feet, no matter how low i got. Think i would be dead or
a almost dead junkie now, had it not been for that little
part of me keeping things in check. And i needed that, i used
coke, pills and meth at the same time for a long time, that very
rarely goes well in the end. I`so so happy i got away from it.
Get a little humble after someting like that. And theres no chance
of relapses or anyting, i have no feelings towards using it whatsoever,
makes me feel like throwing up just thinking about it, so i dont have
to fight any urges or anything.

Might be possible to use clean, good quality amfetamin and still
function, but thats rare. And 90% of the things for sale, is crap
with a little drugs in them. Plumbo, ratpoison, you name it. The
major problems is that you eat way too little food and you dont
sleep enough. That will screw anybody up bad. And you loose
track of time, so days go by like hours, what a waste. One time
i spent 14 hours straight sitting down talking about nothing with
a guy just as strung out as me 14 hours non-stop! It felt like
1 hour, suddenly it was the day after. It messes up the time thing
sooooo badly. Another time i ended up spending 4 hours in a bathroom
at a bar, was there to buy and get out, but the time-thing...its hopeless
it grabs you and keeps you there while the time just zooms by, its
riddicolous

I bought some gravel the other day to fix up the yard,
but it looks like i have to get some more think she
wants it as a kittylitter box outside or something

Havent found any surpries in there yet?

Sounds hard that you could spend such long time without noticeing, are there possibley parts that you dont remember or you black out or something. It is odd I read a post and think that was all but later on I look at the same post and there seems to be more there.

I edited some more text in

"""Sounds hard that you could spend such long time without noticeing, are there possibley parts that you dont remember or you black out or something"""

I know, it sounds imposssible, cartoonish at best. I would not belive it had
i not experienced it so many times. You dont black out, i would say its more
like you go into 6th gear and push the pedal to the metal in your head. You get
a tendencie to say everyting you think and when several people sit together
and talk in this "shape" it just happens. blablablablablabla then you think "damn
i should get out of here, its been 3 hours already" and before you know it its
blablablablablablablabla sprinkled with ideas that might not be so good, but they
sound good and then someone says "you know what, lets do that now, right now!!"
and suddenly you`re in a car going to some random place on a whim and so on
and so on and so on......uh, the horror - alot of those kinds of memories i wish
i could erase, its just riddicolous and dumb. And it felt dumb back then also,
i just got caught in it as many kids does unfortunatly.. so much wasted time

edit--
still not 100% sure about the time thing, even though i`ve been
through it. It clearly affects our perception of time in a big way,
that i know

I smoked pot years ago. I never went beyond that. While unconsciously I probably did it to fit in, the reason I'm aware of is that I liked the taste. Though I quit, I still have cravings for it to this day.