Temeraire wrote:
TUF wrote:
I really like how once you get to level 12 on Song Quiz on Alexa you find all the Brits who were missing from the previous levels.
Starting to realise I don't fit in many places. Starting to is an understatement, I've known it for years, it's just people always want me to fit. Didn't grow up in posh places like they did, or maybe they just lie better... They hate it when I'm too brutal about the truth.
I come from a far from posh place. We were pretty poor and I wasn't taught much in the way of etiquette. What matters now is that the people I surround myself with accept me for exactly who I am.
Some of my mates are well off and like to frequent expensive places - I have to insist on a cheap carvery or take away at mine or their home. I cannot afford fancy restaurants or extravagant pastimes. They are ok with this.
My language is usually more colourful than theirs but they tend to accept this too. I try to keep it to a minimum because I believe in give and take.
They are quite spiritual and I am not, whether they be christian, hindu or something other, we accept each other.
When people are genuine, Tuf, you can feel it.
I would rather have just a few good real friends than lots of acquaintances.
I have one real friend, she's a Yank. I can't talk to her about this stuff but I can talk to her about deep stuff. She's a platonic friend but it's like an ideal girlfriend in terms of the bond we have- I think the gap allows it. Not online, a pen pal I met in real life before exchanging postal addresses.
Tenement where I lived - at least two guys did what would be considered serious crimes anywhere else/by legal definition. There were lap dancers who lived downstairs, from me, which isn't illegal (I think) but certainly exotic lol.
It wasn't as bad as today, there were still high street shops and stuff not just charity/cash for gold/pound shop.
Basically a lot of criminals went there straight from prison and others knew they could kind of dodge prison by living there. I'm trying to stay anonymous by not saying what or where but some pretty serious criminals lived there, including some infamous ones and at least one famous one. I knew about a few famous crimes and I should have reported them at the time but they were things which had happened rather than things which were going to happen and things which I saw as normal. I feel guilty over that but I was a messed up kid not some saviour.
People I'm talking to are acting like the world's a nicer place than it is. I think it's in order to keep friendly in mixed company, which is nice but dishonest. Either that or they're luckier than me.
You're right, the important thing is to make sure people accept you like you are. But it's hard to find those people so I'm going to try to divide out what I'm saying so people have a hope of understanding. People seem to hate it when someone has different experiences to them.
I can't afford it either and I don't have fancy tastes. I do have picky tastes but for plain grub. That rich food makes me ill to be honest, aspie thing. When I was a kid, I was really skinny because I could only stomach a few foods. It might be a dyspraxic thing too as I was weaned when I was 2 and most people are as babies or at one.