13 Sep 2008, 8:52 pm
aspiartist wrote:
ShawnWilliam wrote:
aspiartist wrote:
ShawnWilliam wrote:
aspiartist wrote:
Okay...but I'm sitting with you anyway and believing in you.
You're not alone...even if it feels like you are.
I share similar feelings so I understand what you're going through and how you feel.
You're not alone...even if it feels like you are.
I share similar feelings so I understand what you're going through and how you feel.
thank you *hugs*
**Hugs** you back. I hope you're feeling better today. I'm thinking of you.
awh, you're very sweet.. I am actually feeling a tiny bit better
given that i stayed up alll night without sleep and am still going.. mainly just to switch over my sleeping schedule.. AND it seems as though I may have a job very soon.. i talked to my old boss.. although i am very confused right now and feel torn inside.. at least it feels okay to know things aren't sucking me down the whole way.. i did put a little extra effort in, but still im confused.. im not sure if my life will turn out how i wanted it to, and im sure many people have this problem.. but you see i placed all my hopes and dreams in music, but the more i reach the further away it goes.. i feel so unbelievably hopeless.. i feel myself going into a cave that i never wished to go, enjoying things that i previously forbid myself to enjoy because I was too proud..
im sure it doesn't make sense on the surface. But I hope this is a step towards maturity.. even given all that information, i wont give up on my dreams.. i made a promise to myself that i intend to keep. . and I even feel silly posting about all this on here. . it's just not something that someone who is strong and can accomplish his dreams would do.. i constantly feel stupid. But I suppose things are as they should be right now.. I'm just not sure when rock bottom is truly rock bottom.. it scares me to think that things could get worse .. if i try to accomplish my dreams then they will. What a desperate moment this is.Any how, aside from that rambling I think im okay for now, I just have so much thinking to do.. ._. I hope I have it in me to fulfill ONE goal in my life.. I owe it to myself, and I need to prove it to myself..
but then when i think that way i get scared of failure.. ahah.. even though i understand failure very well is a part of success... *sigh*That was good for venting.. i think ill be spending less time here and on the internet in general, but I surely wont abandon it.. Thanks again aspiartist
That's great news! Your strength and courage is very evident and you did well to not be alone with it. You can have both. Maybe move more toward the type of work that would be more of interest to you, but always find time to develop your creative accomplishments. You have great depth and I admire that in you.
I need to spend more time elsewhere for the same reasons.
Thank you for being a friend.
I'm sure we'll cross paths again...thank me? nonsense, nothing worth thanking me for!
I just repay your generousity as I see it
yeahh.. i get too addicted to the internet and things like that.. but the place that i will most likely be working is the same place and same job i did when i first moved to this town like 4 years ago!
.. it's like going backwards in tiime.. BUT, that was probably the easiest and least stressful job i've ever had, so I look forward.. plus being around people all the time it gets me back in the loop and doesn't make me feel like such a loner. Surprisingly i like people person jobs, just not ones that im stuck in a quiet room with .. which i guess is why i dont like lunchrooms.. so awkward in there and people ask questions in there.. i hate feeling like im being put on the spot.
14 Sep 2008, 1:48 am
02 Aug 2010, 5:23 pm
nice 
02 Aug 2010, 5:24 pm
