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^That's beautiful, absolutely beautiful.
Then, have I reached that love? I would like to think so, but...that could just be my ego trying to make me feel more important than I am [that is, not very].

Love is a many-fangled thing.
With so many facets it can never be defined adequately by words.
It also evolves.
I don't think you can ever reach an 'ideal' love with another person.
And why would you want to?
You reach the ideal...where do you go from there?

.. Not even piling and folding an entire room of dirty clothes whole night, that is supposedly pissing me off by the sight of it everyday ever ruined that 'feeling'.

I wasn't even worried about being late when I slept late by being involved to the chore I disliked the most.
I wasn't even pissed off about my mom commenting yet another clothing complaint, I just didn't mind and took her advice.

.. Not even a single heat or spark of anger. Or a doubt in mind.

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i wonder if i am not aware that i am not really a good person, and that's why god doesn't want to put a beautiful girl in my way and make her loves me so much, so we get marry and live together until the day i die?

i think i should't have used logic to much. ilfe is full of contradiction hence instincts serve us better.
but i can not be spontanius therefore death or rather seclusive life is the most preferable option for me.
i need solitude.
i should live in sweet solitude awaiting death .
i've never liked to be alive.

i am going to daydream that my imaginary girlfriend is talented at singing. but only sings oriental. wish me luck people

i don't know what i exactly meant by oriental =) . i mean singing non-western... like this music

wish me luck pple

europe is lost forever.

now only USA is the last stand of my race.

though i/m ashamed of my race. it allows to itself humaliating defeat.

i can not see the shame.

I'm pissed at midnightstar.

The 'feeling' is about to fade away soon...

Ah well. I guess its just another break from using the power of hate and anger.



Yes, I DO harness the power of hate and anger to curse and empower anything. Blame me. No peep talks would let me think otherwise. Because this is the path I chose, and I don't want people 'saving' me.
But of course I know how to use the power of love and bless anything with it as well, just not as often as I feel like it. I'm not entirely ready for it, nor I see myself reach a certain levels of love yet.

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Why are you being so nice to everyone now?

ive been listening to this far too often lately for whatever reason.