I was doing a bit of thinking yesterday when I was bored & while I was trying to fall asleep & I think I figured out why I have a crush obsession with Miranda Cosgrove. Before that I was very obsessed with a past relationship that ended years ago. Even thou we quit communicating I was sometimes viewing/stalking her pro & giving myself anxiety attacks thinking about trying to contact her again & causing myself other bad emotional problems. Even thou it was hurting me I couldn't let go because it was the only time in my life when I had certain good feelings that I was sorta addicted to. The only way I could quit focusing on her & let go was to have feelings for someone else. I've been unable to get a real relationship(I think my Aspie traits make me incompatible with women sense I'm direct, straight forward, tend to take things literally. I can NOT deal with inconsistency & the psychology of things like playing hard-to-get, the thrill of the chase, wanting a guy who's not easy for women to get ect) I don't have many people in my life rite now so having a celeb fantasy was the way to go. Miranda was obvious because I watched iCarly, I love her music & she's a very popular idol who doesn't seem to have the baggage & issues that most others have. She seems very wholesome, mature, smart, responsible, relatable, funny, & sweet. She's one of the best role models out there as for as idols go. Another interesting point is I was in that relationship when the movie Miranda costared in, School of Rock came out. I saw it with my cousin & some of her friends. I was thinking about my girl Emily most of that time but I remember thinking that Miranda was talented & I hoped she would become big.
I think this psychology explanation makes sense. Now I wonder what's next 