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I saw women today. They were real female humans.

I am a real female human (in body, at least).

I typed phrase kassi saba in Google today (to watch images associated with it). It means "cat tail" in Estonian.

I've spent most of my life in the Kansas City area and I don't like barbecue.

I was scratched on neck and face by own adult sister yesterday. Maybe just because I said that she is a girl

I am not lactose-intolerant.

I have very strong interest in mathematical, literal and sceintific miracles of Quran despite being Catholic and I may have thoughts that I and entire world have to convert to Islam (probably Quran-alone, not Sunni or Shia) because of HUGE number of "coincidences" in Quran which is very, very impressive!

I also have a strong interest in languages on the same level as my strong interest in film.

^ Same. My attention span is not what it used to be though.

I am making sure a family tradition involving obesity in males comes to an end. In fact, I do intend on visiting my school's gym when Winter classes begin on January 6th.

I'm actually an empath and a highly sensitive person.
I do not easily admit this, because I do not fully accept certain sensitivities that I have to deal with. Sensory sensitivity is the aspect I'd easily accept as a part of autistic condition and a part of my being.
But emotional and social sensitivity isn't; it just doesn't suit the idea of myself and who I want to become. I'd only recently taken terms with it.

Relatively alexithymic and asocial.

The former because I willed myself since youth that I don't like being easily influenced as opposed to abuse or processing issues.
The latter is definitely came from the autistics' take of sociality.

And so I'm an asocial autistic who can afford sociality. A relative alexithymic because of certain intense sensitivity.


So yeah.
I embody both the social and emotional ideal, the social and emotional unideal, the social unideal and emotional ideal, and the social ideal and the emotional unideal like a fricking cycle.

Thus sometimes suddenly I became this all-encompassing wise person with insights.
Then an entitled brat with insight myopia at next.

Yet both can speak certain terms of emotions that others had yet to able to convey, and most of it just doesn't seem to be visible to the usual emotional vocabularies of many.
Ironic that others also think otherwise, that I have limits with emotions; and yet knowing emotions outside the usual and more 'alien' emotions better than most at the same time.

It's just fair, really.
If I'm an NT empath and HSP, I won't be the 'master' of relatively 'alien' emotions that's been myself -- I'd be the social and emotional ideal of most NTs, master of their usual and common emotions that autistics don't usually able to deal.
If I'm a socially driven autistic with these same traits, I'd focus mastering emotions that are alien to myself, emotions that I'm not. I'd burned out long ago, and I'd probably have identity crisis with it because I kept ignoring myself to favor what's not myself.

And yeah; as an autistic...
As I realize as an empath -- I'd confirm that most NT emotions, though just as any human, yet ARE alien and so are their social priorities along with it if compared to mine. This is no longer a 'theory' in my book.

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I avoid drinking soda with high sugar content.

I have (somehow) never broken a bone. I have, however, had a concussion.

After looking at Wikimapia, I concluded that United States have the best road network in the world.

When I’m in a fitting room, trying on clothes, I ask my service dog for fashion advice:

“What do you think Velvet? Does this look good on me? Yeah, I don’t like it either.”