WrongPlanet slam book-- say what you think about others here

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Why did you edit your post?

You called me a troll...you edited it.

Are you Satan?

You were trying to trick me.

You can't hide the fact that you edited it.

Edit: People get confused over the internet. They can't hear tone of voice, so if someone says something that sounds rediculous, they don't believe that that person is speaking truthfully.

Trust me; right now, I am scared out of my wits.

I haven't slept in days. I don't even know why.

I edited my post because I thought that there may be a chance that you aren't a troll and that you are genuinely upset about something. I didn't want to make you feel worse. If you are a troll that will make you laugh very much, that's OK with me.

I no longer take personally things which are said to me at forums by people I don't know.

Aridarr. First of all, if you're not an aspie, what are you doing here? This is a place for people with Asperger's Syndrome and their loved ones. I'm sure there are other forums for people of your kind. Second of all, you sound like you have a very serious psychological problem and you need to be seen by a professional, not getting in petty arguments over the internet.

I'm here because I was diagnosed as Aspergic three years ago.

And I'm not being petty.

Edit: I don't agree with the diagnosis.

I'm sorry. I didn't know it was like that.

And I'm sorry that I have behaved in this way. I didn't mean any of the things I said. I hope I haven't hurt anyone.

I will leave now, I don't want to upset anyone.

I just feel so lost.

Despite being completely confused by your last posts, I appreciate your presence here.

I'm not sure if I have AS, that's not stopping my from posting here and interacting. If you can be around and help and have fun with those you can relate to, who cares what kind of label you have...

I like your posts and contribution here. It would surely upset people if you left, if that's what you are concerned about...

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I too found your posts confusing. But you haven't upset me, Aridarr, so don't leave on my account. Why not stick around?

Good holy sweet tapdancing gadflies!@! Icarus has just managed to stick his foot in a rather large bear trap. Ladies and gentlemen of the audience, I assure you that at this point you are only slightly more confused than I am. I will now provide you with the entirety of the back story here, such as it is. For those uninterested, skip to the next post.

Aridarr recently started a thread titled "To all Aspie men who are angry with women." I stumbled upon it after it was well underway, and playfully interjected this post:
http://www.wrongplanet.net/modules.php? ... 947#884947

Aridarr responded gracefully in turn here:
http://www.wrongplanet.net/modules.php? ... 319#885319

The way she concluded with "Who says I'm human" really caught my eye; so I shot back one of my trademark playfully quirky replies, naming Aridarr both noble and quixotic:
http://www.wrongplanet.net/modules.php? ... 232#886232

She replied that she was proud to be quixotic:
http://www.wrongplanet.net/modules.php? ... 104#887104

At which point I decided I really liked her (I admire people who are quixotic and proud), and went really quirky:
http://www.wrongplanet.net/modules.php? ... 157#888157
It was honestly meant as an over-the-top compliment; I've become so at home here that I often forget how quirky I can be; I probably take more than a little getting used to. And you can see how the thread trails off; a playful accusation of sarcasm, and me denying that (because, well, I wasn't trying to be sarcastic, just complementary). At this point I'm just glad I resisted my innate urge to start that last post out with, "Fair lady," OK then. Done with that.

So, another random thread that someone else started regarding therapy, "Do you need counseling". Once again, I just wondered on in, once again because the subject interested me. Once again, the thread is underway, and several of my friends are on it, so I once again make the slip of feeling overly at home. Ah, a post by Aridarr
http://www.wrongplanet.net/modules.php? ... 710#889710

She happened to mention CBT, which my doctor had happened to mention to me last time I saw in a couple of weeks ago; I also remembered that I already decided I liked Aridarr from our play on the other thread. So, I simply ask her about it (making reference to the quixotic thing again), and then get about replying to the thread in general:
http://www.wrongplanet.net/modules.php? ... 973#889973

Aridarr responded with what she knew of CBT, in a very straightforward way:
http://www.wrongplanet.net/modules.php? ... 099#890099

And here's where I think (?) I f****d up, or at least it is the last thing I said to Aridarr prior to the episode on this thread:
http://www.wrongplanet.net/modules.php? ... 187#890187
In retrospect, that first paragraph was clearly taken with implications that I did not intend. But it was honest; I have been several different people throughout my life; what she said so reminded me of myself, that I tossed in, "Maybe I was even you once..." And for the grand, grand, uber-fuckup in over-the-top Icarus quirky trademark style, see that final paragraph, where I was thinking somewhere between fourth-dimensionally and multi-dimensionally. I basically say I think we'll be friends in the future (or, at least that's what I was really trying to say). Creepy and weird? Perhaps; I'm no judge of such things. But anything much different than how I normally ramble? I think not; I think I've done much worse, in fact.

That, ladies and gentlemen, plus what you see here and a brief PM from Aridarr to me saying basically that I scare her and she can't talk to me, is the entirety of this story. I humbly prostrate myself before you and ask you all, as jurors, for your judgment. Besides what I've already said on my own behalf, I will say only this: Aridarr was unable to see far enough past herself and her own fears to see where I was pointing; the cloud of fear that surrounds her was utterly unpreceptible to me; but, I stick by everything that I said to her, including that she reminds me of myself.

What will happen now? I already said it at the end of my last message on the other thread (I was thinking forth dimensionally, remember ). "...time will tell."

In closing, I leave you with an old quote from Beavis and Butthead:
"The only thing cooler than a band that gets lots of chicks, is a band that scares chicks."

Good fortune,

- Icarus Scares Chicks (apparently)

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I really enjoyed those! Thanks for posting them.

I like Icarus_falling.

I find Aridarr confusing. I hope you get some restful sleep and feel better

Wow, thanks for including me! You're swell!

Aridarr hope you are alright now. I can relate to the feeling scared and the panic attacks. I think you said before that you might be Schizoaffective it is quite possible to have that with AS.

Schizoaffective refers to Schizotypy but in relation to mood.

I didn't find what you said confusing. My cousin is Schizophrenia and I am aware of the stigma attached to mental health.

Generally speaking Schizoaffective has a better prognosis than Schizophrenia.

best wish and take care

I've spent some time processing this, and I've been reading thru some of your other posts, the most of you that I didn't see. Damn, I missed a lot; you seemed so friendly and together and even playful initially; you seemed to want to help people, one of many things about you that reminds me of me; my only thought was to be friendly in return, that I had found yet another kindred spirit; and despite all of this, I still think I have. I did not realize you were so troubled; I did not see all of the lashing out and anger in the other threads; I did not realize that I was playing with napalm near a bonfire; fate has played a cruel trick on both of us here. My glimpse of you was too brief, my construct of you in error; I'm getting lazy with creating human-interactive constructs in my old age; I’m so tired of doing so. I opened the box too quickly, and to look directly at Icarus is like staring into the heart of a Krell fusion reactor - it invites madness; I forgot that, just long enough to do harm...

For my own part, I should clarify that there are no ill feelings here; I simply posted what I did so people wouldn't be left wondering WTF? after your outburst. You neither hurt nor upset me, though I was more than a little stunned; my initial response was penned after I glanced at the forums first thing this morning; I was hardly awake; I'm still processing this.

I wish you well, and I hope you find your way back here; I inadvertently opened the wound, and I yearn to close it again; I’m not whoever hurt you before; I do not hurt intentionally, and try my best to avoid doing so by accident, though obviously sometimes I fail. You are unique and distinct, but you are hardly alone at being troubled; this place generally seeps with catharsis. I used to shun this notion (I actually "yelled" at Ana54 when she first suggested it, and I now consider her a friend), but, for my own stubborn part, I've found it inordinately useful; maybe you can too; I hope that you can too...

Bang, bang, bang… Shootin’ in the dark.

Good fortune,

- Icarus the Hopeful

[Oh, and when I edit my posts, it is usually to correct stupid spelling or grammatical errors. ]

I have always had the suspicion that theres a bunch a waspies round here.
(Normal people who want to be different cause they think having Aspergers is cool)
Sorry thats my thoughts and truths. One day when I have more money I will start a forum where you actually have to pay and have a permit from a psychologist. Aspergers is very hard to diagnose. Now I know how black people feel that these whities who never have a hard time in their life think they are all tough and "Gangsta" because they grew up in a "poor" background.
really this could get me banned but it makes real Aspies angry. Pretending to have Aspergers won't make you unique. YOU is what makes you unique. it's funny how people be something that their not
to be them true selves. If you an NT and know it be proud of being an NT.
a few months ago I remember there was an emo infestation here on the forums. Don't listen to anyone who seems emo. If you dress emo I'm sorry but i might think of you the wrong way.
I HATE emos especially the ones I have seen here.........
fine ban me. Speaking the truth is more important to me than posting on a forum.

Oh yay! I didn't think I'd see my name on this! Thank you! And.. Likewise.

P.S. Macbeth says hi.