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I live in a culture whose virtue and values are mainly directed to human relations above else.

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Does that make it harder to be Autistic?

What I wrote above may looks crazy or very impolite.

I refuse to eat pork and beef on ethical grounds. Chicken and turkey only rarely because I need to get my protein in.

I feel like I’ve been being too self-centered and whiny and am trying to fix that.

Some things which makes many, most, vast majority of people (I think that it includes also ones with ASD, PDD, schizo disorders) feeling uncomfortable, ashamed or embarassed do not cause such reactions in me. That may make me even more "weird" than "standard" people with ASD or schizophrenia. I do not feel shame at all when talking about sexuality or physiology and these topics do not seem to be "intimate" in conversations for my mentality.

I hate sexual drive. I do not want to experience any sexual pleasure and any sexual arousal.

I'm currently vegan as part of the fast for the Dormition of the Holy Theotokos.

I concluded that Virgin Mary is extraordinarily sweet and beautiful, not only spiritually, but also physically. Without any trace of sexual attractiveness. She is the most female being which exists. I have theories that without creation of that Immaculate Virgin, The Creator would not create anything and that Mother Mary is the most "necessary" person created by The Most High and she is Mother to all creatures, including all humans and all angels because She was the first person in the plan of Creation. She might be considered the "Incarnation" of womankind and motherhood. Only The God is better and more beautiful than The Blessed Virgin.

She is greater than the Cherubim and Seraphim, but she's also an example of what all of mankind can be. We aspire to be like Mary.

But we will never be larger or as great as The Mother. Looking at Her can bring bliss which is totally devoid of erotic character.

My mentality disagrees with Quran, but also with the Bible and it is a problem in my religious life. Mathematical and literal or scientific miracles of Quran are very puzzling for my nature (scientific are the weakest ones from them according to my mentality, but they may be the most used ones by Muslims to convince to Quran-based religion). I read very anticatholic page http://www.zbawienie.com (which is in Polish and "zbawienie" means "salvation") and I had religious problems because of the context of that page. Another very problematic page for my mentality is http://www.johnthebaptist.us - it is extremely sedevacantistic, it seems to be greatly schismatic (or even heretic) against catholicism, that page teaches very rigorous doctrine. Other is http://www.quran-islam.org, which is associated with a form of post-Khalific Quran-only Islam.

Quite often I have problems with writing longer posts. Poor executive functioning? Negative symptoms of schizophrenia?

I do not regret declining undergoing a possible experimental treatment for people
who have similar medical disorders like mine.