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That sounds great! I know what you mean -- once in blue moon you just "click" with someone because you find that the two of you are indeed on the same wavelength.

It's a real gift to find a person like that -- I hope everything goes well on your second date!

Agreed, and thank you.

Today I saw a car with the wheel on the right side (when in the car) instead of the left side like the cars here in Canada and the US. And there was a guy driving it, too. I just hope he doesn't forget what side of the road we normally drive on in this country. (it's the right)

Data b4

The current counselor has not worked on goals with me

Although for the purpose of the insurance, she wrote that my goals were to gorge less often and feel less anxious at job interviews

The counselor talked to me about:



Gorging
Work
Autism
Homophobia
Clinical depression
Structural engineering
Community college
Precious lil "parents"






Mandated Reporter Law

Trying to find room in L.A on Craigslist.......pain

Either too expensive , deposit too high etc

No odd reason just the video was on my mind for the past few seconds

civilians working for the military

wonder why i am obsessed. preoccupied with the military. have been since around the time i read Honor and Duty buy Gus Lee.

around age 17

maybe b/c some civilians treat veterans like heros

purpose

meaning

but whatever

service to country

fight in oil wars

but then i remember:

hey the military employs civilians

civilians working for the military

so whatever

whatever romanticism the mliitary has, civilians working for the military also has to have

so who care?



it reminds me of how my cousin got a BS in Aerospace Engineering from UC Davis. and for 10 years he was unemployed or underemployed. not working at a job that involves a degree. he has a visible physical deformity. it could be employment discrimination. yes, ADA makes it illegal. but it is hard to verify in a civil lawsuit. all the employer has to do is throw away his application. the employer can't verbally or in writing make notes about his physical appearance.

but there is no law that says the employer has to hire the most vocationally competent candidate. even in a quantitative, objective job like aerospace engineer


so whatever

yeah i still haven't gotten over flunking out structural engineering .............. 12 years ago

and i feel ashamed, guilty, and stupid

but whatever

an Aerospace Engineering degree is much harder than structural, and he still has lived with his parents for ten years. in a crowded apartment.

it's weird

a couple years ago i told a former friend (he's about 80 years old) that the cousin got a BS in aerospace engineering

the friend said "that's great"

so i said that he's been unemployed or underemployed since then

so what, pray tell, is the definition of "great"?

too judgmental

and he had to default on student loans too

much better to not have gone to college altogether

rebadged jags, or fancy european chocolates?

Feel guilty and ashamed

Plenty of minors. Children under 18

Dropped dead
Got murdered
Got raped
Got diseases
Homeless
Nothing to eat

School bullying

And I feel pity for myself

But I am 34. More or less asymptomatic. Always had room and board



So what I ain't got no precious lil "friends"? And no job. No job skills. Meaningless life

Who cares

Priority

Feeling pretty guilty I'm not heading to my friend's wedding reception, but I guess having a chest infection gives me a valid pass not to go.

God sees all.

Does god see me on the toilet?

I want to be an a**hole

Seems an odd ambition.

It's not an ambition of mine more an impulse. I have impulse control. Also I'm bored, that is probably more the problem really. f**k

bored is maybe wrong to say. I want someting to happen.