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I had to remind myself it's late year, that the Earth itself is a bit more distant from the Sun. So, cold weather and storms will come on daily basis like how it is. That snow is heavier somewhere else, and it's cool air drifts and passes by here by the world's winds.

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The constant attention that Forge of Empires, Township, Jurassic Park Builder, Adventure Capitalist, Wrong Planet, Study.com, and Quizlet require. In that order mind you. Also SLEEP.
And food, glorious food I’m anxious to try it!

I am preparing a huge serving of rotini & sauce & cheddar, for this dark clocks-back morning.

Apparently I did too much yesterday, because my intestines raged at me afterwards. It looked like a murder scene.

I'm wondering whether this particular scene is worth anything.

Today I took a cab drive to the flea market. Shortly after I got in the driver started coughing and sounding really unhealthy. Like he had TB or something. So I asked "Are you okay?", and he asked me if I had a cat. I said I have two, and asked if he was allergic. He told me he could smell cats off of me even when I was ten feet away from his cab, even though I couldn't at all. He said he has such a sensitive nose that even with a cold he could tell if anyone had a dog or cat, he never owned pets himself, and wished pets didn't even exist. I had just cleaned out my cats' two litter boxes before heading out, so now I was worried I gave off the disgusting stench of cat urine and only other people noticed it.

As soon as I got home I took the jacket I was wearing and my other fall coat and put them in the wash. I even turned my purse inside-out, emptied it completely, and put that in the wash, too. I sprayed the couch with green apple-scented Lysol. And I'll be taking a bath tonight for sure. The whole experience was so uncomfortable I may never feel that I smell good ever again.

squeak the cat is sleeping in my lap. do i go brush my teeth and go to bed or do i let her rest a bit longer?

I woke up feeling like I'd been run over by a steamroller. But I don't think it's because of daylight saving's time. It's because of a reoccurring dream where I'm at the childhood home of my two cousins and their parents, it's Christmastime, and I'm waiting for my parents to pick me up and take me to their home, but they never show up and it feels like I'm waiting for hours or even days before they or someone else finally arrives. In this particular dream I had no shoes and had to walk through snow with only socks on.

Not much at all, again.

I have to leave my current job. This makes 19 jobs I have failed at keeping I don't know why anyone hires me. However, they have been really nice to me, so I feel guilty.

^Super kitty hugs for you.

It surprises me that I have become so flexible and stronger than when I was an audiovisual student where I sat behind a laptop all day and I keep picturing myself as that laptop dude.
I became an actor, performer, an artist and yet it still feels unreal to me that I'm finally following my dreams and being able to improve myself as the person I want to be remembered as.

That doesn't mean I'm not proud of myself, I have been improving as a person and I enjoy everything around the theatre major!

I really, really wish that people should just stop projecting their fears to me.
Yet, they had the right to be paranoid, to worry and panic. At the same time, they do not know me that well enough to ever assume I would react the same way.


... Seriously.

But the truer wish is, that anyone should stop projecting their selves onto me in the first place -- that is, if they couldn't distinguish their ego and subjective life experience from their mortal condition as a human.
Yes, it's nonsensical if that's possible. But that's the whole point -- a nonsensical wish.

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