I had quite a few dreams last night. That, or one long, really disconnected dream, one of the two. I'm so weird in my dreams too, nothing like I usually am; plus, my dreams are really weird.
First I dreamed that the person I cared the most about died. That sucked. For the first few seconds, I was kinda like, oh, that sucks. Then it clicked, and well... yeah. I was mad at myself, both in the dream and when I woke up, about those first few seconds.
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Then I dreamed something about living with my family in kind of like a giant store where they sold random creatures (that don't really exist). I got one that was kinda like a squished kangaroo with really long and floppy legs. She was a girl and had dark brown and light brown fur; when she grew up, she kinda looked like a kangaroo.
Then... I vaguely remember something about the kangarooish thingy turning into a fairly young woman (she had blond hair; I remember that). Because I raised her as a creature, I was connected to her in some way. My parents owned a big house on the lake, but I didn't want to stay there with her, so they gave us a little boat home... which was really more of a big canoe than anything else. We lived there with two other girls. The water was really rough, so we all had scuba masks, but only the kangarooish thingy turned lady could put hers together properly, and she wouldn't help the rest of us. We kept getting thrown around and tossed into the water.
I went back to my parents' home and complained, because I was tired of being wet and fighting not to drown, and I was angry because the kttl (it's easier to abbreviate kanargooish thing turned lady) wouldn't help the rest of us. They were concerned.
Stuff happened, I suppose; I forget.
Then, somehow we were in this huge place, like an old dormitory. I was still mad at the kttl (she had done something; I don't remember what), and I stormed through the hallways. We ended up arguing, and I said something to the effect of I could get her kicked out. She laughed and said no, I couldn't, because my parents had been overthrown and killed, and a new government was in place.
So, somehow I ended up forcing her out to this huge dam (on the way, we passed the so called new government, which was made up of a gopher and a bird; the gopher was in charge). I planned on drowning her, but apparently drowning someone is easier said than done. There were some men out in fishing boats - about four boats - and they liked her (she was pretty), so they were watching and asked if I was going to drown her. I said no, and got out own canoe and paddled out into the middle of the lake and pushed her overboard. At first, none of the others did anything, but then two of the boats started pursuing me; I paddled backwards and watched where she sank all along. I didn't care too much if I got caught, so long as she died. I ended up getting close to the shore, and some of the boats docked on the marina went over my head (yeah, it's not possible, I know); the two boats came close enough to touch my boat, but they never caught me. Just before I went under the boats, I saw a different canoe with one guy go in and rescue the kttl, which was total nonsense, because there were no bubbles or thrashing or anything, and she shouldn't have been able to reach out to him. She was wearing a gold dress; that was very vivid.
I went back to the new government and yelled at them. They said that they were in charge, nothing I could do about it, and I said no, it was my right and my dream, and I would do as I pleased. I was angry. That's all I remember of that dream.
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Finally, I dreamed that I was at a hotel, and one morning, while it was still pretty dark (more grey, really), I woke up and went out to the beach. At first, people were just doing normal beach things (there weren't many of them though; it was early). Then, as I got closer, it changed and there were a bunch of people at the shoreline. Hundreds of dolphins had washed up, but only a few were stuck; most were just playing around. I started to push them back in, then noticed that there were other animals lying around.
Cows (yay for cows) had washed up too. There was a big brown and white cow and a little baby cow, and there was a big black and white cow too. I helped them stand up - they were really weak laying down (although they seemed pretty fine standing) - and I turned to my mother (who had suddenly come down) and asked her if we could keep them. She said no, but I said I had helped them up, so we had to keep them.
Then I turned back. There was something else that had washed up on shore; I don't remember what now.
Then a big cardboard box washed up on shore. I cut it open, and there were tons of flowers in it, mostly small bouquets wrapped in light blue cellophane. I handed a bunch of them to my mother and told her that now she was a flower queen. Her birthday was (both in reality and in the dream) a few days ago, and she loves flowers, so it seemed perfect for her.
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Then my mother woke me up, and that was it. I napped later, but I don't remember anything from that.
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