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MariaTheFictionkin
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20 Jan 2018, 10:31 pm

How much of a double life I live.

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20 Jan 2018, 11:54 pm

dragonsanddemons wrote:

Wishing I'd never existed, or at least that people didn't care about me so I could kill myself without guilt stopping me. I haven't wanted to live in over a decade, and I really think I do more harm than good by continuing to live. I have the sneaking suspicion that I won't ever be able to support myself, and I don't want to keep living by leeching off of others.

You have friends and family that care about you! I'm certain you are better alive then dead, you have helped me with my depression and feeling lonely and I'm pretty sure you have helped others as well.

I do know how you feel with maybe having to come to the realization that you won't be able to support yourself. I have come to face that myself, I had to change my goal from concentrating on supporting myself and work on other things like improving skills like cleaning and cooking, I also made a new goal to make friends instead. Maybe try and concentrate on another goal, you might be able to accomplish that one and help boost confidence and self-esteem to help with achieving independence!

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21 Jan 2018, 12:17 am

I think... To progress, I need inner consistency even if there isn't a constant way for it.

How does one have inner consistency if there are needs, emotions, and hormones to wrestle with?!

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21 Jan 2018, 12:56 am

Kiprobalhato wrote:

they probably saw a 13 year old boy.

With how many people pass judgement, I'm not sure if they stop at that.

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A person who use to be a friend. She was a pretty interesting person and was also fun to talk to! I keep thinking about her because our friendship didn't end on good terms and I guess it would have been nice to have closure.

(not that I wanted to end in the first place.)

The best part is that she can survive nuclear explosions and walk through radiation unharmed, you don't meet a person like that everyday!

(inside joke.)

I relate all too well to this... That's something that never fully goes away.

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21 Jan 2018, 3:53 am

SentientPotato wrote:

Kiprobalhato wrote:

they probably saw a 13 year old boy.

With how many people pass judgement, I'm not sure if they stop at that.

AquaineBay wrote:

(not that I wanted to end in the first place.)

The best part is that she can survive nuclear explosions and walk through radiation unharmed, you don't meet a person like that everyday!

(inside joke.)

I relate all too well to this... That's something that never fully goes away.

I'm glad someone can relate, at times I started to feel like I was overreacting! As I think about it she might be going through a stage of burnout. She was on this site before talking about problems she was having and I guess it all finally took it's toll, IDK.

I wish I could be there for support physically but I guess I could do it in spirit...hopefully she knows that I'm here...or there(wherever she is.) just chilling while eating...I don't know, Twix, Snickers bar, Kit Kat?(bet she could use one too!)

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21 Jan 2018, 8:51 am

Just trying to enjoy my day and so forth.

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21 Jan 2018, 11:58 am

AquaineBay wrote:

Unfortunately, sometimes that's all you can do, because at the end of the day it's their choice on what they wish to do, and chasing after them when they're not ready to come back can in fact be more detrimental.

I hope it works out for both you and her I really do, but if it turns out that she never comes back, take comfort in the knowledge of everything you did for her.

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21 Jan 2018, 2:30 pm

I'm doing a roleplay with my friend and I am so bad at it.

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21 Jan 2018, 7:06 pm

Taking a shower before bedtime as, I have a great deal of university work ahead of me tomorrow.

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21 Jan 2018, 11:26 pm

The things you do when you're a little too happy.

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21 Jan 2018, 11:53 pm

I don't deserve to have so many people who really care about me. And they don't deserve to have to care about someone who's depressed, self-harms, will quite possibly never be able to support herself, and would much rather die than keep living - they don't deserve all the worry and such.

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21 Jan 2018, 11:58 pm

I don't have problems because I can't describe my feelings, either verbally or in writing, and I have no one to sign to.
So there you go.
Everything is wonderful.
Not scared at all.

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22 Jan 2018, 12:08 am

Making peace with Germany a second time, because I'll never get my groove back. I don't have enough of the love hormone.

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22 Jan 2018, 8:55 am

I never would have thought that I would have such an intense interest in decorating cartoon houses in a video game.

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22 Jan 2018, 9:01 am

How I hardly ever kinshift to a xenomorph. I usually only experience it when I'm furious. I should work on that.

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22 Jan 2018, 9:36 am

The effect a mental disorder can have on a person's eligibility for permanent residency in some places.

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