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I've been doing this programme for eight years now. It only takes an hour and a half each week, but it's completely repetitious and tedious. I don't know if it's helping me anymore. I want to graduate from it, but I'm beginning to think that I'll still be doing it for years and years more.

Every time I start to think maybe I've got a foothold on solid ground, the water rises to sweep me back off. I'm so tired of struggling to keep my head above the water. I've been doing it for over a decade - how much longer can I hold out?

I'm glad the current term of my school will end next week.

Coffee float and being wide awake tonight.

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Love.

the most important meal of the day, na nah nah nah gary's way blech

I don't know anything about this mysterious Trump guy people keep talking about. And sorry, but I'm not interested either. I'm far too busy hanging out with Victor Hugo, Georges Perec, Felix Mendelssohn, Camille Saint-Saëns, and Antonín Dvořák.

Thinking of a proper way to avoid having a panic attack inside a public library, which is where I am now.

Having a difficult time trying to write a letter to my friend right now. Partly the subject, partly a lot of other things.

Trying not to take a nap despite waking up at 5 AM needing to use the bathroom.

I just found out about 20 minutes ago that a movie I desperately want to see is available for purchase on Amazon Prime, so I paid for it and was all set to watch it after I fed my dog, but then my mom said something about it being the night the clocks go forward for daylight saving time, and I have to get up to go to church in the morning. And since I said something about the movie, I know from past experience that if I stay up and watch it, that my mom is going to say something along the lines of "Well, it's your own dang fault for staying up too late" if I say anything at all about being or act like I am anything less than 100% full of energy (despite the fact that I can't recall ever having awakened feeling rested in my life) - I think she deliberately looks for excuses to get on my case about it if she knows I've stayed up too late indulging in an obsession. But if I don't watch the movie, I'm most likely going to get even less sleep because I won't be able to stop my mind from thinking about it long enough to actually get to sleep. But at least if I do that, I won't also have my mom irritating me about it all day, so that's what I'm going to do. ...Sorry, just venting a bit.

I look forward to losing back to 210 pounds. My body will never be the ideal dress size. I love my size 18/20 dresses. When I weighed 210 I was still a size 20. Everyone carries their weight differently including myself.

I've been thinking about the new Super Smash Bros that's coming out on the Switch soon. I am hoping it would be a port of the Wii U/3DS games with a few new characters and all the modes featured in both the previous games in one package, much like Mario Kart 8 Deluxe.

Still relevant today...

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Spring break isn't until Friday, but I'm mentally done with school. This includes the stupid class where I work in a coffee shop for no pay during my free hour and get snapped at for being slow. I'm scheduled for tomorrow and I'm tempted not to show up. It sucks. I just want a real job - even if it was bad, at least I'd actually be getting paid and get to buy things that make me happy.