CockneyRebel
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23 Apr 2018, 8:50 pm
23 Apr 2018, 9:15 pm
Want to talk to someone
But before class, he and I do not come too early to talk
And he talks to a lot of precious lil "people"
After class he has to go to work
Do not want to appear too desperate
The current counselor says she is "helping people"
She just sits there talking
Reminds me of JROTC cadet Peter Wang
15 years old and allegedly sacrificed his life to rescue classmates
The counselor did not sacrifice anything except her time
And she got paid 75 bucks an hour for it
Let's not overuse the word "helping"
The counselor sounds so innocent
23 Apr 2018, 9:23 pm
my mouse had fallen on the floor. in picking it up i had accidentally put my speakers on 100%. i clicked on your video and, OUCH.
Sorry about that.
Michael Gira's lyrics in the video reflect how I feel. I just wish I could create lyrics and music to go with it without my mind malfunctioning whenever I try. He was lucky to have lived outside the Bible Belt where people actually understand music instead of treating it as cheap entertainment.
23 Apr 2018, 9:42 pm
Nothing to do for the rest of my "life"
Except counseling once every other week
Until November
And then it's gone
Ought to get a hobby
But too lazy and apathetic and bored
Bored of everything and everyone, including myself
Appetite gone haywire
Do not know how to waste awayy "life"
Precious lil "people" fired me numerous times
Flunked school
Dumped by precious lil "friends"
Feel like gorging
lostonearth35
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23 Apr 2018, 10:05 pm
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dragonsanddemons
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24 Apr 2018, 10:31 am
that's a good bet.
are your legs weaker or are the eye symptoms more frequent if you're warm, such as after a hot shower?
I haven't been all that warm since these symptoms started - the weather's still been on the chilly side here and I prefer my showers to be just a little bit over room temperature. I loathe having even the slightest bit of moisture on me if I'm otherwise dry, so I tend to avoid heat because I hate sweating. I can turn the temperature up a bit when I shower tomorrow morning to see if it makes a difference - I don't have anything I need to do until the afternoon, so it'll just be a bit annoying if it does, not really problematic.
Yep - that felt pretty good because I was cold, but it made me pretty dizzy and got my eyes doing brief little rapid movements again, although not as bad as it was over the weekend.
On the plus side, I'm already feeling a bit better since I've cooled down again. Yay?
24 Apr 2018, 10:57 am
that's a good bet.
are your legs weaker or are the eye symptoms more frequent if you're warm, such as after a hot shower?
I haven't been all that warm since these symptoms started - the weather's still been on the chilly side here and I prefer my showers to be just a little bit over room temperature. I loathe having even the slightest bit of moisture on me if I'm otherwise dry, so I tend to avoid heat because I hate sweating. I can turn the temperature up a bit when I shower tomorrow morning to see if it makes a difference - I don't have anything I need to do until the afternoon, so it'll just be a bit annoying if it does, not really problematic.
Yep - that felt pretty good because I was cold, but it made me pretty dizzy and got my eyes doing brief little rapid movements again, although not as bad as it was over the weekend.
On the plus side, I'm already feeling a bit better since I've cooled down again. Yay?
the effect of heat on symptoms is another thing your doctor would want to know.
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24 Apr 2018, 11:07 am
CockneyRebel
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24 Apr 2018, 12:03 pm
equestriatola
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24 Apr 2018, 12:50 pm
24 Apr 2018, 2:15 pm
Blister on foot makes walking hard
A gluten free casein free soy free diet might reduce sensory overload symptoms
It just costs so much
Expensive
Do not know how to cook
Addiction.
Emotional overeating
Not many foods are gluten free casein free
Have to read nutrition label
A lot of work
And I am 35 years old
Last year pretty much gave up inari sushi, Clif bars, yam
Two weeks ago gave up Mediterranean lentil salad
Feel like I am 
the bubble boy 
24 Apr 2018, 4:38 pm
I wish I still had my therapist.
24 Apr 2018, 4:55 pm
i wish you did, too.
24 Apr 2018, 5:12 pm
i wish you did, too.
any hope of getting another one?
