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Its supposed to rain all week

Also my mother is being even more oddly helicoptery than usual

Loneliness

Yesterday a crazy or racist woman made up false accusation to my brother and I with a pretext of her dogs health that she was supposedly concerned about.
We didnt say anything besides just humouring her.

I told my brother I noticed since my childhood that in Canada false accusations are the mode of operation for racists and psychopaths to operate by and it is a self-perpetuating cycle. Because you rarely have proof to the contrary as its su h a weird thing that u can ot prove or disprove.

I also got mad that my dad moved us here again, against everyones wishes, overnight and since then we are again exposed to shch people. I had had enough of it in my childhood where the girls would throw pinecones sticks and rocks at my friend and i every recess then they were afraid we wd tell on them (one time my friends forehead began bleeding so she got furious and was heading to a teacher to finally put a stop to it after months of. Us dealing with it) they ran ahead and made up false accusation of racism of my friend who could barely speak english to even know what that term would mean..

Now again my dad brought us back and exposed us to false accusers.That includes XH, his mom, the L clerk. And this stupid woman. This isnt just me these things have happened to my brother and mom too in the past so I know its just how bad people get on here.

Like in KSA the bad people are just blatant (assume, havent experienced first hand) which is bad too but here they sneak around and lie ABOuT you. Or to you. Or both.


Id rather someone show me to my face they are brutality or evilness personified even if they hurt me greatly....instead of doing it in this sneaky way
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Actually in KSA at the American school, there was musab ...the indian boy who changed everyone’s grades to improve them so they cd get into better schools....
that I consider to be a bad person so he was sneaky too but at least he didnt lie with accusations.

The above made me unhappy today because today I began trying to see it from their viewpoint and ‘appearances’ ...and I have to stop doing that (I do it all the time n every time its a trap of my mind). It makes me absorb it and believe their version simultaneously while knowing logically its not true.


Brain cannot handle having both versions and prefers to have it consistent and almost wants it to be true because their version is less complicated

For the brain..its easier to blame n hurt oneself as one has control over oneself more than over others

My arm been very painful on& off since last year, I been having pain near my wrist, it can be a really sharp pain. Very early this morning after 4 am, I was getting up to use the bathroom, I woke up my cat, she wasn’t happy, during the night, I was turning my body, I had to be careful, she loves to snuggle with me, she will lay by my stomach up close, once she was kicking me. When I woke up, my cat had the evil look before she getting ready to bite me, she bitten my arm, the one that I get pain, she made me bleed too & one of my fingernails bend backwards, it was hurting like there were blood, I was crying & then I got anxiety. I got out of bed & went to the living room, I couldn’t sleep, I was in there for awhile before I was sleepy again, I went back to bed,I woke up before noon.

Anxiety

My modem has been acting up off and on for the past week and a half.

Its a gross rainy day, Ive been up since 6 in the morning and I didnt manage to fall asleep until like 3:30am and it wasnt even a good sleep, I have TWO tests today and the second one is in 6 minutes and Im about 99% sure Im going to fail and these three tests are the only thing we're graded on in this class and my gpa is already suffering this semester and we're only a month in and like my mother is going to kill me if I dont make dean's list again this semester

Someone kill me already I am ready to die

I'm feeling very anxious and tired.

WHY IS THIS THING STUCK IN HEADPHONE MODE WHEN THERE ARE NO HEADPHONES PLUGGED IN???

WHY CAN'T COMPUTERS BE NORMAL AND HAVE THE SOFTWARE OPTION TO SWITCH OFF HEADPHONE MODE???

WHY DOES SIMPLISTIC = LESS OPTIONS ON A COMPUTER?

...A COMPUTER.

NOT AN EXPENSIVE WASTE OF MATERIAL, TIME AND EFFORT.

WHY DOES EVERYONE USE CRAPPY COMPUTERS AND CRAPPY WEBSITES???

IT'S ALL EXPENSIVE SOFTWARE AND HARDWARE THAT ARE USELESS PIECES OF SH!T.

WHY DOES EVERYONE PUT UP WITH IT???

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/technology-51413724



I'm COMPLETELY sure that technology is unreliable on PURPOSE. I've nearly always believed this. The software giants have the resources and the money to make way more efficient computer programmes.

Lost another friend though i guess i am glad about it too. We didn't have much in common and i dont think she was someone who valued her friendships. Apparently a guy she knew since a couple of months ago is more important than her longer friendship. Oh well goodbye b***h!

1. The state of the world
2. The stupidity of the ppl we are supposed to idolize by media standards. Just sunscribing to the idea of 'idolizing' a human being is putting immense pressure on everyone imcluding the person being admired.

3. Stupid false allegations just so the guy can scrounge insurance . so he wants money but to do that he is accusing me of stuff that never happened.

4. The loneliness of this country n any country as its my brain that excludes me

5. The fact that lying is so common n everyone is either disgustingly dishonest or being played for a fool.

Nobody can relax n just have basic brotherhood n sisterhood n unity as unity among ppl requires basic trust. Liars erode that trust.

mother

Drama at work.