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Anxiety about my trip

Had alot of pain last night, first my shoulder was badly hurting, then I got itching down there, then my eye was hurting, I put eye drops in, my eye is better, I probably scratched the eye ball. I didn’t get out of bed until almost noon.

Headache and dizzy and tired, probably from meds and/or possibly still being anemic. I rather wish it would be something like brain cancer, though - I still really want a terminal illness so I can die without doing the deed myself.

Also my memory issues and how much of my life memories are lost forever. I have stretches of several years that I don't remember a thing from, pretty much don't remember junior high at all because I had such severe depression through it.

I want to cry when I do things like forget what show was on TV during a commercial break even though I was actually watching the show, because I never used to do that, even post-ECT. My memory is continuing to decline, and it scares me. Not because I'm afraid it's brain cancer or something else life-threatening (like I said, I'd welcome that), but because I'm afraid it's something that will continue to rob me of my memory to the point where I no longer remember how to eat, bathe, or get to the bathroom on my own, leaving me in a condition I really don't want to live in, but won't have the mercy to kill me.

My iPhone X got a green line of death this morning, and I don’t know if I want to spend the $ to get it replaced...

I have LOUD neighbors

Anxiety

One of my friends was sad and I felt bad for her

Trying to decide which books I should take on my trip to Florida.

Snow

I've had a migraine all day from the scent of roses, and the glare of daylight when I went to church.

Bad morning, it was hard to get out of bed, my arm, lower back & leg hurt, it was hard to turn my body, my inner thighs are sooo fat, my pajama bottom got tight when I turned around. I been hearing noises from upstairs neighbors. I hate my life! I’m going back to bed.

Still dizzy. Really don't want to have to deal with this until Wednesday, when I see my psychiatrist, or later.

I’m back to school tomorrow. I’m terrified. I told my parents, said I’m scared and can’t cope. Already had a panic attack today and they said grow up you’ll be all right.
Night friends. Sleep well.

roomate doesn't get the hint. i close the door, he leaves it open.

every time.

Depressed