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Thank you, blooiejagwa and IsabellaLinton, I will ask my mom to call my doctor and ask if she thinks it's a good idea for me to take vitamin C supplements or otherwise up my vitamin C intake.

I confess that I'm starting to panic a little now. What will I do if they turn me away at the door (because my brother is sick, because my body randomly decided to run a slight fever, or because we can't find my wallet with my ID and insurance card)? I don't know if I can wait another two weeks or more (for self-quarantine), I don't know how rapidly my iron level is dropping. Do I wait until my symptoms are bad enough that I need to go to the ER? Do I just keep pretending I'm as okay as I can pretend to be until I die of hypoxia or heart problems caused by the anemia? Plus low iron weakens the immune system, so if my brother does have COVID-19, I'm at a higher risk of catching it and dying or having serious complications from it. I feel a bit selfish for worrying about me so much when it's my brother who's sick - but then again, he is young and going into it pretty healthy without any underlying conditions, which tip the odds in his favor. But then again, I hear that COVID-19 is also killing people who are young and otherwise healthy, so I can't completely set aside my worries for him. He hasn't been coughing much, at least, which is a good sign.

Oh, and when I looked up causes of the body not absorbing iron properly because I figured it was probably some sort of disorder or disease and wanted to know the name (when will I ever learn not to ask Doctor Google?), I found out that one cause could be hookworms. I have a legitimate phobia of parasites, particularly internal ones. Now I can't stop thinking about that, either.

Waiting for my mother.

There's an autism Facebook page that I regularly visit, and some genius decided to send a pattern for Animal Crossing New Horizons on how to customize a cap with a blue puzzle piece on it in the game. I replied that the puzzle piece is a hate symbol, and they might as well be showing Jewish people how to make a cap with a Swastika on it.

I'm also unhappy because I'll probably never get to play Animal Crossing because I can't afford a Nintendo Switch and the games are like 80 dollars each. Even the Switch Lite is too pricey. Maybe I can get them for Christmas. If there is a Christmas this year. The Virus That Stole Christmas.

This actually belongs in the "post something that made you happy today" thread, but since it's about stuff I posted here, this is where I'm putting it.

Whew - my brother is feeling much better and does not have any fever today (and what he had yesterday didn't even break one hundred degrees Fahrenheit, to the best of my knowledge). That means I can stop worrying about him and about them possibly turning me away for possible COVID-19 exposure tomorrow.

Anxiety

Oh yeah, Doctor Google also told me they might do a colonoscopy to check for GI bleeding. I also have a phobia of having diarrhea, so the prep for that would probably be even more torturous than it is for most people, and people who don't have this fear say it's horrible. I'm trying to convince myself that they probably won't do that for me since I don't have any blood coming from places it shouldn't or any other signs of a GI bleed.

aaah crud this covid thing is getting alittle overwelmed..also having to deal with unfamiliar humans

Snow!!

I have a slight black eye this morning. Dropped my phone above my cheekbone while laying in bed last night!

Extortion email

An idiot had the nerve to squeak "look at her face!"

Judgmental,

Identity as male

But even better just shut the f**k up

Idiots act like every thought and emotion that goes through their head is the latest greatest scientific invention ass holes

5;30 pm bad grandma gang neighbor puts her dog out on her front door porch to back at me , then after i go to get camera go right back in nobody else around only me and this dog has been trained to do this ,, all last summer had watched gang type adopted son goading dog to bark at me when ever was out in my backyard which hers is three yards over but the gang member was iliving in a tent inher backyard so it was consistent and this dog has attackedme when off leash as if on command, am quite sure ts acting on command.. do not need this .. just wana be left alone , here. Think his adopted bad grandma told him i was suppose to be liking him and be his GF ,,, mentally sick ..is my best description .

My computer had to reconfigure. It took from 9:30 to now to finish.

My phone is still lost. Overturned the house looking for it AGAIN and no sign