Post a random truth (about yourself)

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I'm the black sheep of the family. Black's a good colour.

The character Gatomon aka Tailmon from Digimon franchise is very cute in my opinion. It is cat-based creature...

I just ordered a beautiful pair of silver flip flops for the voucher I got for participating in online paid surveys

Instead of trying to prove my masculinity with war imagery, I'm using a street vehicle instead for an avatar.

I may wonder if I have just visual-spatial deficits, not autism, for example because I tolerate many sensory stimuli which are horrible to many autistics well (they appear to be neutral to me) and I was somewhat uninterested in eye contact and maybe some other areas of social communication sińce when I remember.

I like the idea of going to London. I'm not sure if I could handle the crowds.

I think that the existence of consciousness would be essentially pointless if this consciousness would not exist without end.

I'm watching Hariot's Happenings instead of Hogan's Heroes this evening.

I misread it as Harlot's Happenings

I have a smartwatch that I never wear.

I have problems with thinking out what to write here.

I got flupentixol since some weeks, but in low doses.

I have "no energy" I have low physical strength.

I have strong "fear" of infection and OCD associated with it

I enjoy seeing the good in people, and point those things out. Sometime, probably often, I have not evidence to back those things up, but I want to instill something positive in people.

I just spent three out of four weeks with someone that does this constantly, to the point where is it like decorative frosting on a cake. He does this for everyone one he meets, with a few exceptions. I understand stand why he does it, and it become more evident when he does not reflect that positivity towards people. They don't provide/give him what he wants. I don't think he realizes this.

Blah blah, what does this have to do with me, the truth about me? I think I do it for two reasons, sometime for one, sometimes for the other, and sometimes both.
Reason 1 - the self interest reason. I want people to like me, or to be more accurate, not be hostile towards me.
Reason 2 - I genuinely want people to feel better about themselves and to see and understand who and what they are.
Metaphor Time: we are darkness and we are light and they both coexist within us, maybe not if one has William's Syndrome, but the point is what???? I guess my question is can we be our darkest selves without doing harm to ourself and others and turn that into something positive with the understanding of both?
Maybe this is all fancy icing on a dark cake (still with the metaphors)? I don't know, but I believe with time (days and years of distant introspection and verification) one can find the truth. It's tricky business.

But I believe at his core, CockneyRebel is the sweet pea he imagines other people to be, or perhaps like me, he is putting his best German Cockney boot forward to be who he wants to be.

Perhaps it is all Masking, and the first step forward is to accept that and move on?

And the dark selfish reason I'm posting this? It probably helps me more than it helps you (not You specifically Cockney Rebel, you are a sweet pea).
The light non selfish (maybe a little selfish) reason? Does it make any sense to you?

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I try to my best to resemble something along the lines of entertainment, because in a past life, I may have been a sea sponge.

I dislike changing clothes...

I was born wet naked and hungry. Then things got worse.

I rather will not pick raspberries today (08.08.2026), but I am not certain of that.