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In San Diego 2006, mister redelings had the nerve to bark at me , over the phone, for an hour

He was homophobic

The previous counselor told me "mister redelings hurt you pretty badly"


Wtf?

So I told the counselor, at least he did not exterminate me. If he were to have done so, you would have gotten 75 multiples by 61 fewer dollars

She was like "we never would have met"

Wtf?

There is nothing so great about her


she did not tell me, a single original statement in 61 hours

‘7cups’ is better for actual interaction..this site is better for questions.

Don't tell me it's as easy as reading 'tricycle' more often.

I dread the day I would have to pick out music which I find suitable for 'animal control' of potential final change inducing kind.

I am worried about not knowing what to do when I find myself completely alone. I have made great improvements in my life, but am not even close to knowing what normal people know.

If I have a force either supernatural or mundane that looks out for me, then heck it must be powerful.


Too bad, I don't know how to 'thank' it other than just enjoy the whole thing, and maybe make it's 'job' easier as possible by making myself more capable.

How does one express gratitude to something that may never exist, or someone that I may never ever meet??
I mean it more directly -- something I couldn't truly figure. Not indirectly like doing good deeds to others kind of wordly gratitude, because I could figure that one out.

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Why should I continue living?

Right now, if I am not "unemployable", I am pretty close

All the jobs I can do, are minimum wage and not enough to live off of

Homophobic precious lil "people" will never apologize the f**k up

Making friends , not usually worth the cost benefit analysis

Health & $$$ will only get worse with age

Fear of dogs


Nothing to do all day long

A disproportionate number of precious lil "people" act so morally innocent, self important, entitled and impatient.

They have too much authority, they talk too loud, there are too many of them. And that will be true, until humans go extinct

Their attitude is f****d up. Like they "help" me one teaspoon and take a gallon of credit.

Or they "hurt" me and take a gallon of credit


The former aikido " instructor" let her off leash dog into the building. And I was screaming.


"Are you ok?" The stupid b***h had the nerve to ask. What the f**k?

She acted like she has never done anything wrong before in her life.

And like I had to.say " yes thank you for asking"

f**k you b***h!


That's like saying, someone is stabbing me with a sword, and then blaming me for making the floor dirty. By bleeding on the floor!


That happened over three months ago and I still can't or won't get over it

Then she acted like putting the dog in the car, was a personal favor to me


That is the like saying, you want me to successfully refrain, from exterming your worthless corpse? ok "

If you want to do me a personal favor, please do

But that , is NOT a personal favor, stupid b***h


By the way, you said you have been doing aikido eight years and you keep calling me a "beginner". But I have been doing aikido over ten years


f**k you b***h

I really hope the Best friend of my crush doesn't get jealous of me

I found a beta reader. Go, me.

Several times a day, strangers have the nerve to call me "n***a". Usually the speaker appears to be black.

Not once, do I remember anyone calling me "Chinese". (Chinese)

Yesterday, the mailman grunted "what the f**k you looking at, n***a? n***a!"

He said "n***a", like it was vulgar, but many precious lil "people" say "n***a" in an affectionate way




Precious lil "people's" attitude. They act like they have never done anything wrong before and "the meaning of life is helping people" (mister redelings)

He had the nerve to tell me that "you don't care about anyone except yourself!",. But the dictionary defines "care" as "to attend to". Outcome, intention, legality and morality has nothing to do with it. Without living in the wild, , it sounds pretty difficult, to go 22 years without caring about anyone except yourself.





And then he told me that "you have a hard time dealing with reality"

"Reality" is easier for you to deal with, because you are a skinny smart handsome cisgender neurotypical white man. "Reality" is racism sexism homophobia fatophobia classism





Homophobic lil dickhead never gave me an apology

Nobody will make amends, without a court order


His wife told me that "he cares about you". He attended to me, just not in a "helpful" manner

He was "helping" homophobic precious lil "people"

He was hurting me




And that was for the greater good

cold feet and a cold back too

Cathy Lynn

The current city and 2018 is much less homophobic than San Diego 2004.

It is not your fault that precious lil "people" are homophobic.

Mister redelings did not invent homophobia

The problem is not that he told me off verbally. So what? He did not physically injure me

"Sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me"

The problem is that I went out of my own way to confide in him

At the time, he appeared like, the most trustworthy precious lil "person" I had ever interacted with

"Trust" versus "mistrust"

Before him, I hardly ever confided in anyone. At least, not as much as him


Now I realize that trusting the wrong precious lil "person” has large risks

So I keep a distance from everyone

Avoidant personality disorder

Avoidant attachment style

Anxiety disorder

Anxious attachment style

Because I do not know, what precious lil "people" socially reject about me, today, that there will be laws about, ten years later, mandating the passive aggressive tolerance of


Because I am not precognitive or telepathic

I just read that someone played "You're a Mean One, Mr. Grinch" for their autistic son, thinking he'd find it funny. But he didn't. He thought it was horrible that all those mean things were being said about the Grinch and that he wouldn't like it if he heard the song himself. He felt really bad for the Grinch. Which goes to show that autistic people lack empathy is really just a myth.

However, another stereotype is that autistic people don't have a sense of humor. I always found the song funny, but I can relate to some of the Grinch's hatred of Christmas, especially the "noise, noise, NOISE!" bit.

And the Grinch *was* really mean and probably would have liked the song until he became nice at the end.

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