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>_< Regretting having read a comment about the rape scene in 'El Topo' in that video about Jodorowsky..

I knew that as someone who had horrifying intrusive thoughts at one point I shouldn't have gone there.

Hoping my mom does not come back the very next day due to her end of the world, disaster based on her hyper anxiety..To be honest, whenever I go somewhere I don't think of the worse possible scenarios, making me feel as, if I have to return immediately.

At Food Maxx, I was waiting in line and someone gave me five bucks. Felt guilty because she did not appear to earn a lot of $$. And I have a BA and AA and I am not homeless yet and all that stupid BS. But I was greedy so I took it.

Breasts feel heavy and large

Head looks more like a woman not a man now

Ate two trader Joe's hummus veggie wrap. 940 calories. Cold f**k. Must reduce gorging.

Below salvage value, but not yet "worthless"



Feel like gorging

Every day this happens

Nothing to do all day long

Unemployable and unfriendedable

Precious lil "people" get on my nerves.

I realize that a lot of the music my parents like to listen to and which I find artistic merit in could be considered the Hispanic 'equivalents' of 'oldies' music.

I can see myself in the character of 'Hudson' in the 'Gargoyles' cartoon.

I'd love to see my Osteopath this week. He looks like Mr. Clean.

Feeling 172,800 seconds of freedom between New year's eve and New year's day .

Looking at old documentation from the time in elementary school when I was in speech therapy. Not sure if I have everything, since I simply took what I have without telling anyone. Basically a lot on the Speech Impediment label and some notes on lack of maturity. I wonder if what my mother was informed of was written, or if it was all just verbal since it was all a hunch and not something proven (as there was certainly not enough cash). What should I make of all of this? Should I just dismiss it or embrace it? Same questions in 2019, same posts being made.

music from first something, something first bf??
well.... not so, he talked to me, i said i cant stay but you can come along
XD XD XD wrong!! !! !! !!
my father picked a fight, it was "he go or i go"
clever move

How is this for a new year's resolution?--I am going to try to 'not care as much' and see to it that I don't wind up becoming an evil d---bag by the end of the year.

Imagine not respecting ppl who shame others for their mistakes. '_' Imagine that.

"life" is too good to be true

No school, no work, almost no homophobia

Room and board

110 pounds

Only one friend, but she is, by far, the best one thus far




After mister redelings, I have not approached anyone socially

Several exception

Fear of social rejection

When they thought I was "lying",. it was like , inciting a riot


When it turned off they were homophobic, not even a lamefuck "I'm sorry sir".


Much less financial reparations


"Life" is doomed and rapidly getting much worse

Health will never get better, just worse


Nobody will hire me


Hack the computer


Stress balls

Below salvage value

Hopeless

Significant digits

Zest for living


Precious lil "people" laugh too much and too loud


For example, the former teaching assistant, told me that everyone did bad on the midterm and there was a curve

He burst out laughing like it was the funniest thing in the world


if you can't beat them, join them. Or live outside it all. Creature that live outside it all don't last long"


Survival of the fittest


Surprised I lived 35 years with this personality

..I think I will continue being disturbed today.