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Anxiety

The heat

Hot outside.

The extreme heat now in Portland.

Sweating from the heat. It might rain this afternoon which might cool it down here.

Anniversary of Rabaa Massacre a few days ago. Of Egypt. By the tyrant military dictatorship.

Nobody seems to care. It doesn't fill any 'political' gaps so they leave it.


I am the only one among my family and friends remembering on the anniversary and after for a few days.

Even when it happened I was the only one keeping up with it and sharing info and petitions to free wrongly imprisoned people of which there were 100s and 100s (because govt didnt want witnesses).

If it were Israel or Saudi ....ppl would be making it go 'viral' in remembrance every year.
Bosnia Uzbek China Kashmir etc..state sponsored terrorism is meaningless to most people then.

Getting stuck on a cloud desperately trying to prove I am human. WTF.

^ You just need to learn the difference between a boat and not a boat

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Another bit with my writing speed;

I tried a very rushed a mostly ineligible version and a rushed yet mostly eligible version...
And it's only 2 WPM apart in longhand, and 1 WPM in shorthand.

Oh my. So my 'go-try-to-be-recklessly-fast' hand speed is irrelevant?

Maybe it's just about 'spelling recall and put it on the paper' speed than just my hand...

Is this actually my upper limit, relevant to autism? Or something else...?
Because the former resonates more than anything.

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Anxiety

^this. over what it turns out is nothing.

Heatwave

Anxiety.

I'm very disappointed with our presidential candidates. One is pure evil so we cant vote for him but the other couldn't teach a duck to swim.

XH didn't pay daycare what they claim he owes them.
but for once he is in the right.

they made the mistake and told something else

(about subsidy being 100% covered for ALL days--
and said this many times with many confirmATions as i , for one, did not believe it and asked 2 different employees of the main office to check at least THREE times total--and once on phone--

and was reassured it was 100% for all days - i even asked months later as i was just so insecure that it was too good to be true-- and AGAIN was reassured by the main coordinator Erin this time- so THREE people total ),

and actually the onus is 100% on them or government

and nothing to do with us but we're easier targets.

it's actually 1 particular employee's fault esp as she allowed us to keep sending and whenever i checked she said we owed nothing..
then backtracked months later saying SHE misunderstood the government and SHE realized SHE was wrong..

so XH's argument is they should either take it up with government or put it as a loss due to their own error.

as soon as she said she realized that- we stopped sending him those days.

the funniest part: they never ever email about this because they don't want it in written words as actually they are in the wrong...and it's been 2 years i think...

it's not even that much money for XH OR my dad (who was saying he would pay it IF there were ANY moral grounds but there are none - and he finds it unethical -
and my dad pays for things that he is actually not supposed to all the time including to this day )

but i think i agree with him on this.