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Mum demanded an expensive present and I’m on a benefit

I wonder if it’s normal for people in a town to be in two camps and obsessed with each other like we clearly are

That woman today was trying to make me feel irrelevant with the ‘just another’ comment but they have clearly been gossiping on and off for 17 years

They really don’t give a crap about me in a nice way then

Two death threats isn’t what you give to a youth you care about

I wonder if people really do swallow 8 spiders a night

They stopped putting onions in my salad sandwiches in the bakery in my home town

Football rivalry isn’t as tribal as in the early 90s

I forgot people swore in the olden days like we do now

They must know they’re the thugs even if they dress it up as being the hard men or whatever, I can’t believe they don’t know they’re the thugs

I remember when they decided it was a good idea to not do separate sponsorships because if you do that then people boycott it like I did with Walkers. Not that Walkers is theirs but same principle

All the old songs are the same as the new songs

People think shellsuits and tracksuits are the same but they’re not, tracksuits are actually comfy

My stepdad can’t stop thinking about the story I wrote a long time ago, haha. He keeps bringing up characters from it

Aesthetic sense must be something you develop

All old clothes look a bit tacky

Being tough isn’t attacking someone it’s withstanding attack

I spend my life withstanding certain attacks, I don’t need to hurt people

I wouldn’t actually mind listening to gay music right now if it wasn’t show tunes and Kylie and was more a tough rock song against homophobia

I used to listen to folk music every week

I bet more folk songs will be written after Brexit

Mum is obsessed with ‘poor mothers’

In the face of the internet, the meaning and intersection with 'folk art'..

..given the impact of social media and internet related tech this decade is there even going to be a '10th generation of consoles'?.

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Those times when you can imagine someone 'getting bored' but when it comes to art on your mind , where do you start?.

The sun has set, I woke up late and while not lethargic, I have been functioning at a 'low energy' today having spent time intrinsically cleaning pet related dishware and a coaster, washing dishes and being daring enough to watch a 'reaction' video from a Japanese person to the Logan Paul fiasco of long ago and 'checking myself' to know that I'm not triggered.

What s---ks about finally having 'enough time' after sunset is that if you do art, you feel the 'excitement' of your heart beating, your mind rushing with ideas and self-debating blame as to why you didn't get across to doing this earlier when you could be trying to improve your sleep habits and trying to 'wear yourself out properly' with watching 'not banal, but not too deep' Youtube videos with a favorable length.

I hate the internet at times-- okay to say that?.

The uncomfortable experience and memory of being reprimanded by an East Asian woman with a British accent being upset at me for not doing laboratory work wel.. "=_= eehh, I don't quite feel comfortable pondering about 'the vertical mosaic' as expressed by British minorities who oversee me doing stressful and complicated work with chemicals.
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That episode--

I remember in a Cracked article (goodness knows how I don't know which exact one it is right now), that TV producers are actually fearful of depicting school shootings (a few exceptions exist--that 'Outer limits' episode and the season 1 ending 'The OA' comes to my mind) b/c of how they might be replicated.

I wish to watch that 'Outer limits' episode again as it reminds me of the frustration of being put through an institute of education but not feeling respected and recognized...maybe I will read something different in it this time which reminds me of the frustration of being put through an institute of education but not feeling respected and recognized.

I'm trying to relaxxxx.

A "life" wasted

Nowhere close to self actualized

"Come here Holly", is not the same as "I apologise for breaking the Leash Law"

Embarrassed, intimidated

Extroverts see something they do not like. Imagine what they want. And try to manipulate and peer pressure their way into getting it. Greed


Introverts consider what they could lose, through failure.


Get published


Resignation


Last night I could not sleep. First time in a year. No clue why.


Military basic training, advanced individual training


"World's strictest parents"


Punishment

Corporal , capital



Today I felt invisible and ignored. "Life" can only get worse.


Heath get worse

$$ broke

Socially awkward

Emotionally fragile

Gain wt


Anticlimax
Watermark


Villian


Protagonist


Rollercoaster


Guard dog

Crochet

Snore


EMDR


Emotional freedom techniques


Idiots act like every slightest thing is the funniest thing in the world


Buddy buddy and indulgent


Cross examination. CIA interrogation



Kind of want to email Corey but he keeps peer pressure into. Volunteer. Community college


Cost benefit analysis


And what the f**k is "AAA ha ha ha ha ha ha ha".


Not everything is funny. Not everything has to be funny.




"Most people" are such entitled lil dips**ts that they truly believe that every time they are not happy, someone must have violated their stupidass "rights"


f**k John Pearson. Berkeley. His spoiled upper middle class brat was not happy, so I must have violated it's "rights"


f**k Natalie Ann Freeman. UCSD


Today I saw Amy lee scheel b***h. She parked in a parking lot and walked off. Hope the b***h got a ticket. Although I doubt it's strongly enforced.



f**k San Diego State University AFROTC captain Joe Dumont. White boy. Masters criminal justice.


This lil penis had the nerve to tell me that "students that take six years to graduate are undisciplined. We don't take undisciplined students".


Discrimination

Ableism

Autism

Undiagnosed,vat that time


Structural engineering is much harder than criminal justice, stupid b***h!




Just for that, the colonel ought give you a dishonorable discharge


Fort Leavenworth



Conduct unbecoming a penis


You can't measure discipline. It's a different definition and amount all the time.


Effort and discipline are different



Efficiency, ass hole



Forfeit all your pay


Bread and butter


Demoted to E1 , Food service specialist


Cook


Go back to basic training



Academic degrees revoked, ass hole



You do not even know me. You do not know if I am "undisciplined"








Read a book about autism and homophobia and write me a book report.




Show some respect, you lil dips**t





Unity and diversity club





f**k the spoiled upper middle class brat




f**k Amy Lee scheel b***h






f**k mister redelings

i use youtube guided meditation videos. or my favorite music or an interesting book. what helps you?

Stereotypical depictions of Vietnam war veterans having flashbacks/ a 'Black mirror' episode--my experience at a call centre.

God help me i need to deal with people at the execution office (idk if this is the right translation) again

Sometimes music.

Last night I felt overwhelming fear and anger. I still have some of that.

just becoming employed, I know I've said this so many times that it's become absurd.. Yet, I feel unable to carry out certain critical function without much needed resources as, well as feeling that I'm not lazy.. &*^&*

Politics. The election for the congresswomen and -men is less than a month away and I don't know who to vote. There seem to be only bad options, but I know I just have to pick the least bad option and vote her or him since if I don't vote and try to make a difference that way I have no right to complain about where the politics are going. But who do I pick, that's the problem.

There is nothing left to do in "life"

The jobs I qualify for, almost everyone else also does. And almost nobody wants to do them. They pay minimum wage

Restaurant retail sales

Outside STEM and trades, not many jobs suited for introvert autistic

"Most people" are idiots. They talk too much and too loudly and there are too many of them.


It is awkward to ask them to say "excuse me" instead of "what"

They might do it less often, equal, more


One out of three are good


And how much less often


Monopoly


Reverse psychology, devil's advocate


"Life" is going nowhere


Belong to nothing


Challenged

Accomplish


Join military


Almost every time, precious lil "people" can me. (Fired). Soon


Military, red tape

Discharge for the convenience of the military



MEPS:

Autism
Gender identity Disorder
Clinical depression
Anxiety
Menopause
Over half year counseling

That's just thus far


Air Force ROTC






Sleep deprivation

Easily cold and tired

Lazy

Blanket party

Rape

Involuntary reclassification

Meals ready to eat

Insufficient outhouse access

Sleep in foxhole

Loud noise

Cleaning barracks

Guard duty

Kitchen patrol

Straggling

Bread and water

Uniform

Gas chamber

Shots


Sick bay, scarlet fever

Stop loss



The military can change your contract, without consent or notice


Constipated

Shower


Quarterdeck, smoked,


Insufficient free spare time


Living in close quarters




Uniform code military justice


Work 100 hours week


Could get deployed anywhere any time




Many military bases in dangerous areas, bad weather, poverty




Some service members live in poverty



Naval ship crowded. Captain has too much control and power


Nowhere to escape


Peter Mims


Seniors have too much power


Menial labor

Details


Cleaning


Ironing



Barracks inspection






Belongings

Meaning

Purpose

Guaranteed military occupational specialty


Structure

carrying on with business as usual until otherwise as noted

Anyone who supports genocide can't moralise to anyone else about anything. That's the ultimate worse thing.

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