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^Nothing about it seems that way to me.

This one, for instance, gave me a lot to think about, and it's slowly sinking in that I need to stop blaming myself for everything.
https://everydayfeminism.com/2015/11/us-individualism-victim-blame/

wahn.

I think this sounds fairly accurate.
"But the basic, defining difference between them is this: Extroverts gain their energy from other people, while introverts lose their energy that way. That’s it."

What do you guys think?

Here's the full awesome article:
https://everydayfeminism.com/2015/04/examples-extrovert-privilege/

Lil dips**ts make vague and misleading statements on purpose

Manipulation

Reinterpret

Yesterday I asked Rolando penis, when there are only five emotions and one of them is happy, what is the point of asking "how are you doing?"

Rolando Morales penis told me, that you could say you are tired and aching

(Fine)

Doctor Benjamin Spock, uppity dips**ts lil hippies




Then he could say "are you ok?". And offer to call 911. Say "I'm sorry to hear that"?




"Are you ok ?" Gets on my nerves


Idiots keep asking, every time they think I did something unusual


Every time they act like I have to say "thank you"


But all they did was flap their trap

Annoying

They don't have the authority or skill to "help"


The penis once asked me if he wanted him to pour me a glass of water


Unless I get so injured or lazy that I can't or won't pour the water, please do not offer


It was like he was trying to make me say "thank you"


And why the f**k do ass holes say "sorry" for sympathy?


Geeta once told me "sorry you are upset"

Ok I am not "upset"

"Upset" is not an emotion

You did not "help" me by telling me that


So shut the f**k up!


And why did idiots tell me, "sorry your mom died"


They didn't kill her


Overpopulation


When they apologize for things they didn't do, then do I have to say "thank you"?


And when good things happen that they didn't cause, do I have to say "thank you"


What is so surpring someone dropped dead?


Everyone is going to drop dead


So what?


Whose goal is it to have as many people alive as possible?




Besides when I got a buzz cut. Age 20. She thought I was gay. She had the nerve to laugh at me with the landlord


That plus numerous other disrespectful microaggression


Made me seriously consider suicide


She came around


But that was a year later


During that year I could have committed suicide



She did not send me to autism diagnosis

Regional center

Applied behavior analysis

Speech therapy

Occupational therapy


Zero


Nothing

Late diagnosis


Buddha knows how much those services would have "helped" me


"Your sister is so smart. Why are you not like that?"


Over and over she refused to say "excuse me" instead of "what"



She blamed me for school bullying


She bothered me about appearance



She made me do her homework




s**t is it such a bad thing she dropped dead?

Being considerate isn't bad but worrying about every little microaggression when you're autistic yourself and have social anxiety is. Bad people aren't going to read articles on how to treat others with kindness. They want to hurt people and they know they're doing it. The rest of us can be too bogged down by rules etc and it can make interaction hard.

I've decided to just be myself. Being myself at the moment means being a better person. I've been running on the defensive for a long time, trying to make myself seem like someone nobody would want to be around because they made it clear they didn't like me for things I couldn't help, so I made it things I could. I'm a representative of something bigger. And I'm a representative of myself. And I have people now who have my back. Next time there's a music session at the pub, I'm going whether it's 'twee' or not, because it's all part of what came before. I'm trying to recapture some of the strength or resilience I had when I was 12 and decided it was time to do things on my own, to go away from the herd my mates were following because it was down a dark path. Time to take that up now.

My autistic coworker says not much

My breasts feel large and heavy

A medical doctor asked "do you have male or female genitalia?"

Doctor Herschel

"You could have fooled me"

2014 Oakland

Some doctors are intimidating and arrogant

Testosterone $$ and side effects

My voice is already pretty low





Last night ate way too much

Can't cope

This is the easiest situation

No school, no job, almost no homophobia

Health, $$, will only get worse


Aging

Graceful degradation


How the f**k does anyone cope with anything?


Serotonin


Ssri, maoi, $$$$$, side effects


Counseling with Jeanne Courtney ended October


She did not know:

graceful degradation

mad, angry

Python

to 83

major five personality traits





But Jeanne Courtney was, by far, the best counselor thus far, out of 35

not obsessed with Mandated Reporter law

no comments about appearance

DSM


But she was too dramatic

Overdramatic


And closeminded like mister redelings


Except he "hurt" me ten bucks and he got zero


She "helped" me one dollar and got 75

Context


For example, the public high school closest to my house, had a five percent math proficiency rate

For that school, my math skills were splendid

But not enough for structural engineer

Same as redelings

He got 59 percent in homophobia. Need 70 to be not homophobic

"Most people" in San Diego got ten percent


But whatever


Not even an email apology


Buddy buddy

Indulgent

"Care",

Cross examination

Judge

CIA interrogation

Same as Jeanne

"Show your work"

They both were wrong about something so basic,

All three of us grossly overestimated their skill


They act like "inciting a riot"

Not even an email apology


Jeanne said homophobia is a friendship deal breaker

But almost everyone was homophobic in San Diego at that time

"Beggars can't be choosers"

Mister redelings was otherwise almost perfect

I was attracted to him

Sometimes people change

2006

There could be other friendship deal breakers

An infinite number of things idiots reject about me, or vice versa

Things I do not know yet because they have not come up


off leash dogs

calling themself "people", as if to imply I am not a person

Flaking

"You got mad"

Amy Lee acted like she was perfect

She told me that she would tell me when I did something she did not like

And she expected me to change


Immediately permanently and drastically


Cheerfully


And she would not change for me

Jaywalking, leash Law


And I was too intimidated to tell her to say "excuse me" instead of "what"


She kept saying "what"

She interrupted me to ask what I was going to say next


f**k mister redelings, Amy lee, Jeanne Courtney

Wondering if If I have had learning disorder(s) along with Asperger Syndrome all this time?

I have my first real job opportunity. Wonder if I'll actually get it, and if I'll be able to handle what's involved with it. Last thing I want to do is disappoint.

In an alternate universe, where my household is rich enough to afford diagnosis easy -- may or may not be in a more progressive country... Yes, another ridiculous daydream.

I would've been misdiagnosed for bipolar or a mood disorder, a type of ADD, a type of gender 'issue', a possible type of schizophrenia and a personality disorder, prospagnosia, specific types of communications and sensory disorder, and a language learning disability.
Not exactly misdiagnosis, but may diagnosed with anxiety and depression, and may never get to conquer it.
Though I might've also diagnosed with a GI issues, sleep disorders, hormonal imbalance, some form of period issue along with that, a more precise upper respiratory issues, and possibly a more serious form of auditory processing disorder.



Should that would've-been-me be happier? Sadder? Stronger? Weaker? At heart and/or mind? More willful? More.. Free? I'd bet she'll thinks she's lucky too, possibly luckier than the-me-now would for different reasons with different priorities, with different ways of valuing things.
Yes, that's an assumption. And yes, I'd also assume that she also thinks of the 'possibility' of the-me-now currently existing in this reality, asking the same questions. As much as I can imagine that she can afford comorbids with her more comfortable life, I also assume she imagines the comparatively less comfortable and less affordable yet less constricting life I'm leading. I wonder if she assumes the same that I'm assuming these things as well?

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