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I really don't want to go to work tomorrow. I hate my job.

"You are allowed to exist, your life needs no explanation or justification or apology. You are allowed to have emotions, you can be hurt or scared or angry or tired or happy or nervous. You are allowed to be loved, your gender representation shouldn’t dictate how much affection your family, your friends, or you give to you or yourself.”

amen. good to see you, kura.

Good to see you, too.

Last night ate too much barbeque pork. It was good but not irresistible

Doctor appointment Friday. Need drugs. Reluctant to take drugs for a long time. $$, side effects, stigma

But you have to ask, which drug and which patient

Drugs could help, neither, or hurt

Gender Clinic appointment two weeks. Transition to male. The first time I did that, gained weight and exhausted. But that was 12 years ago and many legal and social advances in LGBT rights have occurred



There are some diseases and drugs that doctors won't prescribe testosterone for.


Drug interaction


Osteoporosis

Tired of hiding under a hooded sweatshirt

Uncomfortable

And thinking about if every stranger thinks I am a man or woman





It's getting harder to look like a boy, when I am 36. Even though Chinese men often are skinny short , high pitched voice, no facial hair



Paranoid. Menstrual cycle








Rolando Morales penis acts like he is so f*****g smart and I am intellectually challenged


He lays the compliments on, thick

But he is a volunteer and it is not illegal to be an ass hole



Bell curve

Dualism


Not everyone is smart . By definition, not everyone can be smart.


It's ok


But what is not ok is for a professional counselor to make comments about my appearance, intelligence, or demeanor. Judgmental. Good or bad.


Even compliments are insulting


It is bad that I care so much about IQ. You can't choose your IQ score.


It is bad that I care so much about what some penis like Rolando Morales penis thinks about my IQ score



But a low IQ score is not necessarily a bad thing



Paralysis


Wheelchair


Hunter garstin


Animal rights activist


Hunter


Raphael lee fuentas, 23, shot with gun. Albany ca




Staff sergeant Travis Mills


Too old to join military


Ashton


Quadriplegic


Paranoid a car will run me over and I will be C1 spinal cord injury



Idiots are calling me "she " and "they"



Ass holes

Well it feels like the weight of the world.

I think I'm over my Game of Thrones obsession. I don't like watching people get violently tortured and killed.

Frontier disturbs me too.

We don't share a stomach, a single stomach, we share feelings.

In the brush painting class I am the Daoic spontaneity.

Interesting how you say that. Days ago, I tried to watch a ~1 hour summary of the all the seasons except the current one knowing that at some pt. the series veered off .G.R. Martin's pending work. i would like to say how you saying that makes me disinclined to someday try to watch a ~1 hour summary of the all the seasons except the eighth, while watching the eighth dubbed in Spanish. All the better perhaps: we are living in a time when the past luridness of sociopathic politics even if seem like 'realpolitik' are increasingly irrelevant, recognizably toxic and a continual source of schlock and stagnation in genre narratives. Almost feel like saying 'malignantly useless' to quote a horror writer I find inflammatory.

'The lesser blessed' movie can make for a more contemporary look at 'Canadian not-so-niceness' like i said before but tbh I'm not too sure if I'll ever get around to watching it, even though I tried to tell myself I would like 'Frontier' once as well. Jason Mamoa can do better than the a 2nd rate Dwayne Johnson.

Why do some precious lil ", people" campaign for suicide prevention?

Overpopulation

Abortion
Euthanasia
Capital punishment

Everyone is going to drop dead sooner or later

Plenty of people are starving

Why not waste $$$ on them





Idiots worship laughter

job description

obituary

dating ads

character witness



Laughter is not perfect


Some idiots burst out laughing every time the slightest unexpected thing happens

Warren said "stop". Two boys kept going. Warren said"stop" again. A boy said sorry. Warren burst out laughing

What the flying f**k is so funny?






When I was 21, a penis accused me of eating his curry. He got me evicted. It was a month to month, but landlord only gave me 15 days notice. 17 apartments rejected me. Almost ended up homeless should have taken video tape. Penis didn't know who ate his curry. He blamed me. A video tape would have shown "the truth". The penis was Masters in mechanical engineering. Dickhead. At least he didn't press charges


So I get paranoid a penis from aikido will accuse me of stealing something

If they lose something or someone else steals it


A friend told me they won't steal from aikido of Berkeley because it is a training community


But

Some spouses injure spouses

Some parents injure children


At UCSD, numerous posters that claim someones computer got stolen and all they want is the file. Their disretation is on the computer.


UCSD is a community



Everything is a community


Army is a community

Fort Leavenworth is a community

John George psychiatric pavilion is a community


Doesn't mean nobody steals anything









Hormone replacement therapy


Appetite gone haywire


Chocolate stimulates the same part of the brain as love


Try to find a replacement



Nobody will ever make the mistake of hiring my worthless corpse

Everyone that acts like they are important needs Narcissistic personality disorders and "delusion of grandeur" diagnosis



Unearned income


Panhandling


Stockmarket


Lazy, efficiency

Stupid, effort



Outcome



Rolando Morales penis shut the flying f**k up


Itchy


Allergic to that dickhead

Finally someone who gets me! I hate all the rape scenes too, and i didn't even watch it properly.

Reddit is so partisan at times. I'm getting downvoted for telling someone it's disrespectful to compare the death of humans to the death of animals.

I try so hard not to be partisan and I don't know why I bother.

This is something the yanks on here will relate to - Michelle said (I think it was Michelle) 'they go low, we go high'. I find it so hard to stay high.

Only so many benefits of so many doubts can be given before I go back to hating the lot of them.

Trying to be human and so forth..

Every job has something seriously wrong with it

Nobody will hire my worthless corpse

BA accounting
5 years experience
Peachtree
Dog friendly office
Driving
Long commute
Dangerous, loud, crowded, "diverse",
Too many hours
On call
Inconvenient hours
"Physically aggressive children"
80 pound boxes


All it takes is one annoying coworker


Idiots don't want to be my friend

They keep dialing my phone number, even when I just went to the bathroom

They act like they are perfect, attitude

They expect me to change, immediately permanently drastically cheerfully

But they are not going to change the slightest thing for me . Not even stop jaywalking

"You got mad".

Dogs

Say "excuse me" not "what"

Peer pressure

Cancelling

Judgmental

"Cool", "sucks"







As a result of the above limitations, "life" will only get worse

Not better

Graceful degradation




f**k Rolando Morales penis

f**k mister redelings dickhead

f**k Kayla feder b***h

Interesting the difference what you wear makes, saw Tom coming home in tight jeans and t shirt. Had a nice time looking. He went into his house and put on a black tracksuit and I just stopped looking because inappropriate and decorum etc...

I am trying very hard to not reply to that guy's dehumanising comments. Even his username on there is a joke about people dying.

I like reading the biographies of people where there’s extreme happiness and extreme sorrow in it – not showing off ones

It’s like Seamy doesn’t understand how little disability benefit actually is or thinks I really get paid or something

Bubbles are probably a good thing

Dehumanising people is really dangerous and they’re going down that line

It’s always the ones who were strongest who are ‘bitter’. I’ll be one of those

It will be really weird mix of emotions next weekend

The idea that people being from Irish background doesn’t affect them is so American/English. It’s affected me since I was a kid in terms of people treating me bad

Adulting as a notion is ableist

Does it count as being defensive if the reason I'm doing it is because what the person thinks/says is so opposite to the truth that I find it downright offensive that they'd think that of me, rather than trying to justify something?

i know i'm still angry about having been called dishonest (i tend to be too honest) years ago.