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I'm never going to fit in with Cathal because he wants me to fit into a little box and I don't fit into it.

Lou is so naff but at least he welcomes me. And we have similar opinions just express them differently.

Why can't someone turn off a light?
It's hard to live with other people sometimes.
I'm wearing earplugs and waiting for them to leave for school.

I wish people would just listen sometimes.

I think that cell phones are stupid sometimes because here I am typing about this way I am feeling when I could go to bed.

I still feel that people don't listen.

I think I may have a cavity even though I brush my teeth.

And, I have therapy at one.

Why can't we just tell other people how we feel and they listen?

I made a controversial comment on reddit and I am so bored of clicking the block button but I'm not going to argue with people who won't listen

A need to not only visit my school's gym, but also my school's counseling clinic in part because of feelings of stress that happen without warning and are unpredictable.

I know what it is to try to mask and to be stressed out by it. I know what it is to be a kid. I don't know what it is to be an NT adult who fits in and feels comfortable. At the moment it feels like I'm going more and more extreme and becoming a 'character' and I'm not sure if that's healthy or not but it's being myself and doing what I'd do if there was no-one watching. Thing is, everyone else acts like there's someone watching and keeps their head down which ironically means I'm the one they watch.

What I do know is that the quality of people I get to talk to and the intensity of the conversations I have goes up. People know me as being non-judgemental which is one of my positive qualities. I literally only judge you if you either act like a bigot or side with historical bigots. People can come to me with things.

So maybe it's good, it's just that I feel kind of exposed because my mask is completely off. Some people don't like me for it but those people usually have some sort of conservatism holding them back from fully embracing me.

And yes I sound like a narcissist but, honestly, autism has 'self' right there in the title. I don't usually say this sort of thing out loud.

If I don't have these inconsistencies, I wouldn't have to reanalyze therefore think about myself over and over...

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Should I invest in crypto currencies?

Vague

Misleading

Manipulative

Subjective

Inarticulate

Counseling

Impossible to prove or disprove

When I am not at wlrk. And dealing with an idiot at work. One person hides behind an entire profession

You don't know what their job description says, so you give the benefit of the doubt



When I am at work, it is like, customer service



Canyon

Ditch

Hole

Meteor

Glacier

Epoch

Some dips**ts act in ways that should be passive aggressively tolerated, if they were intellectually challenged or mentally ill. Can't prove they aren't. But seriously doubt it



Just because I give them the benefit of the doubt, doesn't make them do likewise

Discipline

There is no reasoning with any kind of drunk.

Lou wasn't meaning to be a bigot. He was meaning to criticise a bunch of cowards. I was calling them similar myself, I was just being an aspie pedant.

List of things to discount over my sleep problem;

Anxiety Nope. Attained 'emptiness', attained relaxed state, doesn't make sense.
Depression Inconsistent. Would've make sense if it's consistent.
'PMS' Inconsistent, yet likely worsens. Possible trigger through hormones though.
Adrenal Fatigue Getting rid of it made me physically more relaxed, yes. But doesn't do still with sleep debt.
Screen Time Tested a week straight -- only attained more lax mind (for not needing much to read). No significant change.
Bedtimes and Cycles Inconsistent. Only works well if balanced to begin with.
Sugar and Glucose Intake Tested a month straight. Inconsistent. Better sinus comfort, no longterm change in sleep.
Nasal Congestion No, still. There's shallow breathing, drier mouth... No real change in sleep debt.
Meds Any form of antihistamines never helps, sleep problem solved or not.
Delta Waves. Effective for a whole month... Until reproductive cycle ruined it. I 'forgot' how to meditate now. May try again.
Sleep Positions. Requires more observation. Factors only if room condition is ideal and sinusitis is excluded.
Humidity Requires more observation. High humidity; sinus and discomfort trigger. Low humidity; dryness. 'Just Right' humidity -- cool dry season between Nov-Feb; better sleep.
Sleep Apnea Possible cause. Obstructive? Possible. Central? Very likely -- observed constant shallow breathing.
Other?'Getting sick every night' Cause? Multiple triggers, closely related to humidity.

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Actually maybe Cathal is only acting like this because he's been treated like dirt over his religion. And he only said one thing and what he said was basically right anyway. He's from a different era and I should cut him slack.

Donkey Kong

I know I promised to stop talking about this but...

Doris, Marian, Cammie and "Katy"

really sound like girls...

Not much.