Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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Anxiety

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The only thing I could describe is... This form of boredom.
Not the lack of energy and motivation, but more like a lost of direction and momentum.


It's like... One is meant to do marathons best, but... Sprints are only allowed or encouraged, and one is just too "slow" and is really frustrated about it.

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We backed out of our house contract this morning as the house sellers did not even respond to our messages about the failed inspection. Feeling directionless and depressed that we will be living in an RV for an unknown amount of time. I'm also in a lot of pain (around 4 days in a row of it)

While christmas was mostly fine, I may have said something insensitive to my granddad, without meaning to, and I'm upset everytime I think about it.

Also, my holiday's just begun so of course I've got the worst cold I've ever had.

The neighbour kid (not really a kid anymore, but certainly acts like one) has been blasting fireworks all throughout the week. Of course it's not even new year yet. It scares my cat and annoys everybody else. He just enjoys being a loud, obnoxious POS.

You might have dodged a bullet, Flown.

Readying for work. Out of clothes, into cold. Shower warm, then into cold again. Warmed by uneven drops, then wet and cooling. Worse in winter apartment. Dry. The smell of towel; its awful feeling. Then dress again. The smell of clothes, though clean. Different fabrics, different weights. Ready lunch. Different textures, differing temperatures, several tastes. Resigned. Must do. Later, into cold. Will the windshield need scraped? The sound, the texture. The difficulty. Sounds of cars and horses. Smell of gas in cold, feel of cold car, driving to work. Ugly radio voices; waiting for school buses; worrying about horses and cyclists. Then screening people, in the cold. Sun bright, if out. Glasses fog. Uncomfortable and cannot see. Acting pleasant. Want to escape. Coworker talks Jesus and politics--need something to be angry about every two minutes--ignoring my lack of interest. Cold. Long hour. Counting the people left to screen. Waiting to go in the warm, but there the rush of lights; sound; people readying their needs, feeling ignored; never a break. Counting the time of the short week. The shorter feels longer, stretched by expectation. Then finally peace, in time off, relaxing as it decreases, knowing this routine will return.

Lots to do.

I had a bad dream that was about one of my pets getting hurt.

I overslept today.