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The contact of eyes.

I had an appointment with a Neurologist today. My bride accompanied me.

I noted to the Neurologist that I was on the Autism Spectrum.

The Neurologist expressed disbelief—because I am not a child.

Damn--that's quite insulting.

"That's ironic. I can't believe you graduated medical school -- because you're a moron".

This exact thing happened to me at my last appointment he’s known me for 7 years and always mentioned the symptoms I had are related to my autism like with the adhd and Tourette’s I thought I had he was like “that’s normal for people with autism. Then come last week or the week before I mentioned 2 sensors meltdowns I had, how I dislike texture of clothes still at my social isolation he was like “you know you don’t seem autistic to me I don’t even think it’s on your records” but the nurse correct him and said it was and he was like you barely qualify so I’m not changing your diagnosis.” I was relieved but still he isn’t with me 24/7 so of course he can’t see my pinching my arm and punching myself in the eye, getting distressed at the smallest noises that no one else can hear yelling over misplaced items rubbing my arms on my head stimming etc. if anything my sympathy got worse over time like I went from level 1 to 2. Also my pulse was high so he told the nurse to call my primary doctor and have him add a 5mg beta blocker since I’m in a better place, I think he actually ruins my “better place” I was in fact the worst now I’m sad, depressed and verbally explosive all the time. I’m not going to get emotional on this post because I don’t want to spread them to others and ruin their night. He could lose his job over this. There you have it, my same experience as the OP. Sorry for others who this has happened to as well.

I don't know who put you up to tolerating a phone call with me, but I found out you were only going to do that once, didn't I?

Nt BS expectations about unwritten rules, nt ignorance, narrow mindedness

You did kinda string me along.

I told you what friendship means to me and you made me say it applied to you.

I told you people don't like to talk to me, and you insisted you enjoy talking to me.

I observed that you seem to have lost interest and that we no longer talk, and you insisted I was wrong.

You did kinda string me along.

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You asked me for help and then you ghosted me. Truly ghosted me. Who was it that got to you? Was it someone who mocked me or was it someone who outed me, or did someone do both?

Do they know what you think of me? If it's my awkwardness you have a problem with, you may have even gotten that from them. Are they mocking me, too? But if it's the other thing you have a problem with, you should know that they see themself a lot like me in that regard. Yet they admire you for your acceptance of them. Ironic, isn't it?

You know you aren't the first person to ask me for help and then ghost me? The coincidence and timing are not lost on me. Perhaps it was that first person who soured you toward me. By outing me? That's really the only explanation there, since they don't have a problem with my awkwardness and probably don't mock me for that. But they do hate me for the other thing.

So, which is it? Did someone pick on me for yucks and convince you I was pathetic, or did someone out me?

Anxiety

I think I accidentally ran over a slug with my bike yesterday.

ABS sensor in the car went, so now I no longer have anti-lock brakes. Oh well, it's the first car I've owned with ABS so it just disables something I've never learned to rely on in the first place.

This morning I woke up screaming after having a dream that I was in a classroom and attacked/tried to kill my teacher after she told me what a failure I was for not writing down her instructions for a home project of some kind (which made no sense), and that I would no longer be allowed to do anything even remotely enjoyable in class the following year.

When I had a major life event happen, it was about eight months before you asked how I was doing. Very recently? You seem to have forgotten that I have a life threatening problem before me.

"Sorry I can't be that for you," would have been the perfect, honest, cost-free response and would have helped me tremendously.

It's not the primary definition:

tease: to tantalize especially by arousing desire or curiosity often without intending to satisfy it