04 Nov 2019, 10:57 am
Something I am denied for not being a loud and aggressive Trump supporter.
dragonsanddemons
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04 Nov 2019, 2:22 pm
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04 Nov 2019, 2:48 pm
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find a center in you
I will chew it up and leave
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down
Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but the past is done
Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but the past is done
Why can we not be sober
I just want to start this over
Why can't we sleep forever
I just want to start this over
-Tool, "Sober"
Except in my case it isn't being sober (or not) that's the problem, it's just me. So what if I don't do any of it intentionally, it's bound to happen anyway. I just don't have what it takes to have a real friendship with anyone, something always goes wrong and it ends up with just hurt on both sides, or just a slow fading. That's why I've been isolating myself recently, except for posting on here - both for the benefit of myself and others.
You are special. What is wrong with us as online friends?
dragonsanddemons
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04 Nov 2019, 4:19 pm
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find a center in you
I will chew it up and leave
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down
Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but the past is done
Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but the past is done
Why can we not be sober
I just want to start this over
Why can't we sleep forever
I just want to start this over
-Tool, "Sober"
Except in my case it isn't being sober (or not) that's the problem, it's just me. So what if I don't do any of it intentionally, it's bound to happen anyway. I just don't have what it takes to have a real friendship with anyone, something always goes wrong and it ends up with just hurt on both sides, or just a slow fading. That's why I've been isolating myself recently, except for posting on here - both for the benefit of myself and others.
You are special. What is wrong with us as online friends?
Nothing's wrong with that level of friendship, I just can't get too close, casual friendships only. I really am meant to be alone (and I don't say that in a negative way, I'm happy by myself). It's not really that I don't think I'm good enough to have friends or anything, I just don't think I'm designed to do well in close relationships of any kind.
04 Nov 2019, 4:31 pm
Something I am denied for not being a loud and aggressive Trump supporter.
I do not know how any woman could give someone the time of day that openly talks about sexually harassing and assaulting women and girls. He’s so disgusting. I can’t even.
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04 Nov 2019, 4:40 pm
04 Nov 2019, 4:41 pm
funeralxempire
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04 Nov 2019, 4:42 pm
Something I am denied for not being a loud and aggressive Trump supporter.
Have you and Sly considered trading towns for a few months? I feel like where he lives, being a Trump supporter isn't helping him, clearly where you live being not a Trump supporter isn't helping you. At the very least you'd each have a whole new town to be disappointed by.
04 Nov 2019, 8:11 pm
I am just an imbecile
I will only complicate you
Trust in me and fall as well
I will find a center in you
I will chew it up and leave
I will work to elevate you
Just enough to bring you down
Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but the past is done
Mother Mary, won't you whisper
Something but the past is done
Why can we not be sober
I just want to start this over
Why can't we sleep forever
I just want to start this over
-Tool, "Sober"
Except in my case it isn't being sober (or not) that's the problem, it's just me. So what if I don't do any of it intentionally, it's bound to happen anyway. I just don't have what it takes to have a real friendship with anyone, something always goes wrong and it ends up with just hurt on both sides, or just a slow fading. That's why I've been isolating myself recently, except for posting on here - both for the benefit of myself and others.
Just thought to say Thank You for being here . The bigger the knowledge base for W P will be of benefit , i hope , in the future .
Prolly not the response you may have wanted but it is honest .
It is soo easy to become saddened by things .. and tough to hold a positive thought on some days .
04 Nov 2019, 10:16 pm
Saturday went to the Bart station and tried to bowel movement. Impatient ass hole pounding on door. Failed. McDonald's (1st time). Union City. Someone was bothering me so I left but he didn't even go to the toilet. Entitled impatient lil penis. 
The penis's girlfriend slept over. The penis stays up later than me every single day and he can walk and drive. Ass hole doesn't even use a wheelchair. Colon cancer stage 4 diagnosed over four years ago and nothing. (Ally's Law). Penis keeps kicking me out of the bathroom and says he can't wait but don't believe.
Finally friend hung out with me yesterday s**t. Week before, I had job interview. Mechanic, Pinole Lanes, didn't get. Week before, she was absent. It's wierd it doesn't matter how much time passed, we pick up like it was yesterday.
Thighs touch, s**t
Doctors appointment was "As Good as it Gets". Was looking forward to it for four weeks. Lame and pathetic .
Discussed government benefits
Looking for job
Wellbutrin seizure
Dr Butler didn't pressure me to take Wellbutrin
Dr etchiverri sure as f**k did
Stock market investment
Everyone, regardless of job, could have:. Felony conviction, psychiatric diagnoses, prejudice, stock market investment
Prozac again
It didn't even occur to me, eczema but she saw my hands and prescribed something
Problem with insurance
Drugs not ready
Zero hiring event this week scheduled on indeed for com
One exception but it is every week and s**t
05 Nov 2019, 12:19 am
More fortune telling using playing my cards. 
I see two Joker cards...
I see an Ace of Hearts representing a powerful love.
A 4 of Spades representing a relationship one has put too much work into. It can lead to a dysfunctional or abusive relationship.
I also see a Queen of Diamonds which I believe represents my mother, and a Jack of Hearts represents a young man and a lover.
Ironic, my mom has started dating a young man recently who isnt that much older than me. He seems like a nice guy, but I get the feeling that my mom is spending too much money on him trying to win him and his kids over. She's been buying them food and even bought new clothes for his kids...
It's the generous nature of the Queen of Diamonds to shower her young lover with gifts.
But given how my mom's relationships always turn out. I think problems are going to surface when she starts to feel like she's being taken advantage of and holds it over this young guy. She does that with every man...
As for the two joker cards, why do fools always fall in love? 
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