Post something that made you UNHAPPY today.

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My to do list is long for tomorrow.

I am so not in the mood for this s**t;

Failing someone. Which I feel extreme guilt and remorse for. I should have done better. I just can't...coerce and control others, even if it's for their own good. I'll have to live with this one. Apart from recommending her take the medication, there wasn't much else I could do, because we all make our own decisions, and she was cognitively alright.

Sigh.

Youtube is recommending so much low quality random crap that I'm probably going to have to create a new account and start over.

Anxiety

Seeing my own face in the mirror

While trying to figure out what the hell was happening, one of the first things I considered was hero complex. I couldn't find any info about it, though, so I kept looking. But I essentially had it correct. You underestimated me, so you thought you could be my best friend without that infringing on your personal time. You liked the idea of being kind to me, provided that wasn't inconvenient. But in pretending to be my friend, you were essentially teasing me. I've learned that my feeling rotten about it was completely normal.

The greeter, tattletale tom, at work, had the nerve to tell me that ASM Don asked him to "supervise", and make the lot attendants sweep the front of the slave plantation once every two hours. (How do I even know if they had that conversation? Don and antakia b***h need to put it in writing. Not just "Telephone" or the grapevine). Tattletale tom micromanaging and annoying. Then Josh said that ASM antakia said that sweeping not necessary, and to be garden loader and push garden carts.

The front of the slave plantation does not need to get swept once every two hours.


Suspect those ass holes have ulterior motives



Stressed worried

Want to quit dumpster fire "job"

Ate too f*****g much


Circumference expanding

I didn’t sleep good last night, I had to go to the bathroom, I was itching. In the early morning, my cat attack my mouth, she cut my lip, I was badly bleeding, I felt blood in mouth, yuck.

Well, I can't find any info on why a contrarian would just say no to everything for the sake of denying me, except as a means of control. You don't want me to have the satisfaction, not even of having done something for you. Unless you asked me to do it. If I just make a suggestion? You'll find a way to say meh. Having no curiosity about me probably comes from the same place.

That light at the end of the tunnel feels more of a funnel and I'm just seeing the end of the receding light. Dreams of a trusting cuddle to take away from the suffering of life's blight. Reality shows me neverending arduous tussle with unbearable weight and an unscalable height.

I had to call the maintenance company because the kitchen faucet has been leaking... I did manage to get help here despite kinda messing up the call... anyway, the faucet's old and apparently done for, so they'll install a new one some time this week... I'll probably be at work when they do, so the maintenance man needs to let them in... which is annoying; I hate being even more of a bother. But nothing I can do about it.

Anyway, I had to use google translate to figure out three words I needed for this message, and got an "oh yeah, that's what it was" -feeling every time after checking. Basic stuff, I should've known these. Guess I'm a bit too stressed right now.

Anxiety

It's March too.

I don't like March.

High CBD/low THC pot always has a nasty taste to it when smoked.

Mother